Posted by Quintal on August 22, 2007, at 17:00:46
In reply to Re: I'm on Xanax, posted by Meri-Tuuli on August 22, 2007, at 9:24:16
It's worn off. Every time it wears off I feel a sense of relief - I get my brain back again, not so much my reasoning powers, but awareness of what's going on around me. I feel sort of blinkered while I'm under the influence.
Anyway, I realize I just 'replied' to a question you didn't ask in the first part of my post, just went off on a tangent said whatever was going through my mind, although I have a tendency to do that anyway.
Yeah, I'm more aware of the numbing effect benzos have on me. When I first started them I was young, and I thought it was funny that I'd keep forgetting what I was saying and doing, and where I'd been. I was just so grateful to have something that worked. But now I'm older and I've been down that path before, and know where it leads; just more confusion, outbursts, embarrassment, and more anxiety in the long run.
I'll try and keep the tablets for 'emergency use', or to break a cycle of anxiety or insomnia. I don't know how successful this will be though. If I find I keep on taking them every few days I'm going to flush them down the toilet. I've been there before and it was just a waste of my life. I'm not going back after I've come this far.
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