Posted by Audris on May 30, 2007, at 10:33:35
I have suffered from depression since the age of 13. I was molested by my father who suffered from manic depression and bi-polar disorder. I have always seemed to keep my depression under control. Now all I want to do is avoid the world. My mother passed in August 2000 suddenly from cancer. My younger brother passed away July 2002 from an over dose of Oxyicoton. My older brother passed November 2005 from a cancerous brain tumor. My husband gambled, drugged, and cheated on me my entire marriage. I recently found out about the cheating. He felt the need to tell my daughter. Not sure what the motive is but all I can think about now is… we never used a condom in our marriage. I get sick thinking about it. He is now my ex-husband and has been ordered to pay the debts of the marriage however since my name remains on the debt if he does not pay I have to. My ex is not one to take responsibility never has. I will again take care of this. I am not sure how, but I don’t sleep and are overeating which is not helping the problem. I start a new program of Topamax,, zocar, and a sleeping aid. I forgot the name since I dropped it off at the Pharmacy. I have never joined a chat room or anything like this but feel the need to talk to people about this.
I want to feel better. Even if I pay this debt the rest of my life knowing I am away from the person who created it is not in my life. I feel for my daughter, he borrowed money from her and she is not able to get it back. She works and goes to school full time. He has not moral code. I don't want to bash him because it makes me feel worse. I am hoping for this medication to help. :)
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