Posted by yxibow on March 23, 2007, at 1:11:06
In reply to Re: No hope in more useless drugs/Negativity/yxibo, posted by stargazer on March 22, 2007, at 23:18:41
> I try and present everything as I experience it; the good, the bad and the ugly. They're all part of this process and I don't think many here have escaped seeing alot of what I've seen.
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> But I know my attitude has been real negative and I have to watch myself with that since I don't want to take away any hope that others have. That is too important to keep as long as you have decided that med trials are the route to go.
Med trials are a very valuable part of treatment for a disorder I never bargained for that has made life the loneliest time I can think. Life changing OCD and dysthymia seem to pale in comparison to this. Or maybe by not fighting the loneliness and depression I've added to a disorder that doesn't fit any category and thus every medication I take is off label. There's been only one other person on this board who has had a form of my condition -- Somatiform disorder.But they're not the only part -- doing things, hard work, therapy is a valuable part of treatment too.
> I'm not against med trials, I'm against trying so many things without a plan or logic behind which med to try. The process gets to be too frustrating and feels like experimentation, not science. When they work, you don't care how the med is chosen, when they don't you get cynical and angry, like I have been the past few months.
> Also, some times the meds can make you angry and that recently happened.
>I fully understand.
> That's when you're on the 4th or 5th med and nothing has made any difference in your situation.
The trouble in a way is I'm on more than 5 meds...
But I also fully grasp this.
> Let see, since last year, I have tried without any success...Marplan, Risperdal, Seroquel, Lamictal, Cymbalta...a bit of improvement with Emsam, Emsam with Provigil (dizziness), now Emsam with Abilify...I'm getting a glimmer that something may be starting to work with this combo, keep your fingers crossed for me.
I will.
I'm getting a glimmer that something in therapy is starting to work but then things get turned upside down a bit when you try to reduce medication. Of course I want the elimination of this disorder. But if I can't, at least I want it to reduce to such a whisper that it doesn't occupy a substantial part of my life, that distractions in my vision and auditory space (this isn't psychosis) return to a noise level. And that I gain more satisfaction from life and finally become my own person and gain my nest egg and all of that, that I and everyone else here at my stage of life deserve.
> Stargazer
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