Posted by liliths on February 21, 2007, at 15:47:59
In reply to Re: Back from Exile: Welcome back Q! » liliths, posted by Quintal on February 21, 2007, at 15:19:25
oh wow Q
what you wrote makes such perfect sense to me... it's so much the way I am these days as well. And how funny about the piracetam!
I wish the tianeptine was helping my anti-social behavior but it hasn't touched it. I'm still sitting in the house, day after day, dreading every damn second... scared the phone will ring, scared at what I've become... scared I'll just keep getting worse
you know - and you really DO know this - that you CAN deal with this guy if you have to.. and it sounds like you have to... do you have a number for him? would be easier to force yourself to call? (this from someone who hasn't been able to pick up the phone in weeks! - gotta laugh at myself for that one)
BUT YOU CAN DO IT! I know you can. Have you listened to your messages? Does he leave contact info?
I can't answer my phone on a good day without screening so I know who I'm picking up for. Can you do that? Turn the volume on and when it's a collector, turn it down so you don't have to listen
You can also email him and simply explain your mistake... that you were looking at an old cached site.
You might want to also tell him you're going through a rough time, which is why you're ordering the tianeptine in the first place. You're depressed! He probably won't get it BUT on the other hand, your communication might be enough to placate him. And at least email IS easier contact than the phone :)
and yes, if a drug isn't working, there's no point taking it. A break will do you good... except for now, when you could use some help. But it will work again after the break.. you know that
it's funny, but you're so right. This board is where my friends live as well as the only place I can go where people understand. That alone is simply staggering
take a deep breath.... take another... 1 more for good measure
s-t-r-e-t-c-h
you're going to be ok :)
You're not alone in this and even though we're not in the room with you, you're right here in oh-so-many hearts
You've been there for so many people. You're resiliant. You're strong. You're compassionate. No silly salesman can take that away
namaste and a ((BIG HUG)) from a distance so it's not too scary :)
lilith> Oh liliths,
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> I don't know how I get myself into these things - it's funny you should mention piracetam. I ordered some earlier today along with tianeptine and other nootropics like picamilon (I know it isn't supposed work, but what the hell, there's still placebo to fall back on). I have to use PayPal because all my main cards have bounced and I'm stuck with a crappy 'Solo' debit card. Anyway, the guy who runs it sent me two emails back asking me why I'd used the wrong site, and why had I emailed him instead of using the order form on the website........ I was just following instructions (which happened to be 3 years out of date). Now he's sent me two irate emails asking why the Hell haven't I answered the phone? - he's been trying to ring me.
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> So where is the problem I hear you ask? Under normal circumstances this would be fine of course, but I need the tianeptine et al for social phobia, and to get it I now have to pick up the phone (which is set on silent mode so I can get some peace from all the irate debt collectors that are baying for my blood), and converse not only with a complete stranger, but with an aggrieved and aggressive, larger than life scary American dude of a stranger. All of this while risking answering the phone to one of the debt collectors by mistake. And then they'll know.
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> I'm having palpitations at the thought of it. Don't know what to do. If I let it go he might put me down as a time waster and never entertain my custom again, so I won't be able to get tianeptine as that is the only site I know of that accepts PayPal where I can use my Solo card. I'm not entirely sure why I'm bothering to try it again to be honest. Curiosity and lack of side effects I suppose. And to be sociable, so I can be on the same drugs as my bestest friends here...............if only Phillipa would ditch her Luvox and join in too we could all share the fun. Are you up for it Phillipa?
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> I'm going off codeine because I seem to have developed tolerance to it. I've decided to make a clean break. I tried some Kratom the other day but it didn't seem to bother itself enough to have any effect at all, and if it's going to be like that then I want nothing to do with it either.
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> Q
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