Posted by Fivefires on February 9, 2007, at 15:10:23
In reply to Re: Any1 Following P's Thread above re: Val ... » Fivefires, posted by Phillipa on February 9, 2007, at 12:50:12
Oh, I know Jan, I know it's all of them. Sorry if it seemed I was zooming in on that alone. One or another of the benzos should have been adjusted when I first reported symptoms similar to my nervous breakdown 2yrs ago.
I hope u don't mind I've changed subject line.
I went to lie down and I suddenly realized how truly weak my body is.
I can think pretty clearly, but I cannot use my physical system or nervous system to speak w/o almost slurring, to open eyes widely w/o them almost closing, to hold my head upright rather than it sort of hanging to my side, or to sit up proud and not slouch like an 'I don't care' attitude. This is just like then.
I was right from the beginning. I did have another nervous breakdown. This isn't decompensating. This is a nervous breakdown left untreated. There I was right inside a facility to be admitted and because they called back here to my P, I couldn't stay.
And so, this is me left untreated, this is a remnant of me. My physical self is 'wasted'.
Whatever will I do about getting ready for this appt? Why didn't anyone listen to me a month ago? (I don't mean u or any1 here.)
I cannot go to my appt looking this disheveled.
I look and move like a zombie.
The only thing he would give me in the beginning was a tranquilizer. I said no!
I'm not even nervous anymore, at least not here safe inside my place.
I feel like I've 'wasted away', again.
Jan I don't want to worry you re: nervous breakdown. It's onset for me was after a horrible long bout of uncontrollable crying, then an inability to walk w/o holding onto something, unable to eat, etc. You know what, instead of ever worrying about one, now you will know what warning signs are.
OMG, 5f
It's like b4, but then I had no Valium so was hyperventilating, but my body shut down. That's how I feel at this moment. Like I need assistance to get there. The only reason I could go to store yesterday is it's 1/4blk away and I could lean on the cart and there was more than one person in that store that I said to 'I'm sorry, I'm ill, can u help w/ this or that'.
Shall I really be so 'I'm okay and understanding w/ my P'
HELP How to handle appt???
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