Posted by bch on February 7, 2007, at 20:59:02
Hi,
this board has helped me so much over the last few weeks with med trials, but i never intended to post...
I hate to do it but all I know to do is give a short history.
I have been on prozac off and on for 15 years. It does the following for me:
*No suicidal or better of dead thoughts
*Keeps temper tantrums at bay (just yell at my kids, don't SCREAM at them)
*Gives a slight focus to thoughts,can usually decide which T.P. to buy in under an hour. foggier when not on prozac or on other ADsWhat it has NOT done for me:
* Has not given me more energy (sleep at every opportunity for hours on end)
* Has not Stopped compulsive binging (no purging) (15 years of docs saying "oh no, doesn't increase carb cravings,blah, weight neutral blah blah, excercise , blah blah dont blame the meds, blah blah..100 pounds later, oh BTW... of course this is not all the prozac, i could have managed on my own eventually)
* Has not made me feel HAPPY, just a little better than wanting to dieEvery so often I would try a NEW one, paxil, zoloft,ZZZZZZZ, lexapro but never felt better than the prozac, so like an abused child, I always went back to the prozac because at least I knew what to expect.
A few wks before Christmas, I got on the merry go round and decided I wanted to feel better and I would try whatever. Started with Cymbalta. I stayed on it for 1 month. I didn't feel better, just blah.
Finally went to a pdoc. She suggested adding klonepin to the Cymbalta, to see if eased anxiety would stop the oversleeping overeating. Nothing. I broke a .5 mg into 1/2 or 1/4 so as not to crash all night and day. My 15 yr. old finally asked me where my sense of humor had been for the last month or so..... I stayed on it because I had stopped binge eating, bloating, and thought I would eventually lose weight since I wasn't overeating. One month later, all my pants are 2 inches to tight.
Then went off cymbalta, thought I would die, or be killed by DH, and don't know what I would have done if I hadn't found all you wonderful people. (No withdrawl with my patients, blah, blah, you'll be fine, blah, base level, see how depressed you are w/o meds, blah, blah,,,,)
Went on emsam, with such hopes because I had such obvious symptoms of atypical depression. Other than all the typical stuff here on other posts about emsam, I am not depressed really, but I am a BITCH, I mean to say, "welcome home, how was your day?" and I say is "Why are you home???" I am po'd at everybody and just feel generally like a mean, hateful person. Now I am no doormat on any day, but I try to be at least not vicious. My apetite has come back but I am not sleeping as much. This is how I felt on a trial of Wellbutrin several years ago, not suicidal, I was fine,but made everyone ELSE feel like crap, very mean spirited.
Saw Pdoc today, she now think I am bipolar, no mania symptoms because I have developed such good skills at controlling them and they are masked/evidenced now by extreme anxiety/harm avoidance.
She prescribed topamax and will add prozac after emsam washout (she says two weeks...is that long enough?)
So after all this drivel (I AM SO SORRY) I am reading about bipolar and topamax here and on crazymeds and I just don't know... I am pretty avid about gathering info and have been for all the years with the major depression, and I have never felt I had any bipolar symptoms. Just always down or unhappy. Anyone out there have any brilliant thoughts about the need for the serotonin (prozac) and not liking the wellbutrin?Thanks so much for your patience, I would not say I am manic by any means, but all day I am talking and can't shut up!! HELP! a little wired. Took last patch of emsam off at noon.
poster:bch
thread:730950
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