Posted by willyee on October 10, 2006, at 0:03:00
I came here to post,and ended up answering them lol.I always do this,and im so worn and have a sense of guilt from spending so much time here,i dont post.
Well just to jot down,its 1 am,i am pretty much terrified at this point.My thinking is as follows
I have tried every drug i can think of....This includes combos....
My real doc moved,and the new one is less than appealing to me...
Most importantly no one around me seems to care,its kinda like ok hes not making a fuss,lets leave him.
So i exsist in my own little world,but because im maniac my bills and all else stay in order.
I feel however im loosing control of my self talk more and more everyday,and feel like a speed truck going 90.
I presented this to my doc to no availI presented this to my family to no avail
So what now,is some angel gonna step out of a corner and help me,NO.......im gonna crash and chrash hard.
Lol they say help is all around,but man have i reached,and as i loose my mental energy more and more each day,so goes any chance of stability as i always end up being the factor that helps myself.
When i hit the point where i cant do this,well i just dont know.The med change i have is parnate from overseas while i wait for my script here to arrive,thats all.
But whatever it is,im totaly out of control,and i get so angry when i see my family going about ther buisness,i wanna scream,HEY your son is suffering,a little help please,but that doesent happen.
Ok sorry i know i was to keep the parnate part as the only part of this post,but its the maniac thing,remember i just told ya,lol,trying to keep my sense of humour too.
I dont even know what im asking here,if anyone reads this and knows,let me in please.
poster:willyee
thread:693461
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20061003/msgs/693461.html