Posted by jealibeanz on June 29, 2006, at 20:43:05
In reply to Re: Approaching doc about Depression, posted by Jost on June 29, 2006, at 19:09:01
No, the anxiety isn't controlled at all, but at least it's being treated and somewhat deminished by the 3 x .25 mg Xanax daily. I went to a pdoc without a referral... horrible experience. He sent me on my way with no meds saying I will respond to nothing since I don't like SSRI's and that I don't have anxiety or depression.
My doc is wonderfully caring and more than happy to help, I'm just afraid of bringing up the subject. I'm also afraid that I'll try a med and not get better(you can't fail unless you try... holding back gives one a small sense of hope), or that he'll want to try another SSRI, or nothing at all. He and the entire office want me to succeed and do well.
I'm at PA school right now, and they're all thrilled about it, hence the extreeeeeme anxiety on top of my already normally high levels, and the urgency to control depression. I won't be a good provider with huge anxiety and depression, and the toll it takes on my confidence. I do fear that I won't be certified or hired if I have a history of anxiety/depression, psych treatment, and currently using Xanax. That's seen as baaaad! There's no need for review boards or employers to take that on from the beginning. Medical professionals are held to a different standard, fair or not.
I have to call in a week for the Xanax prescription refill. I may ask for it to be increased, since he already indicated this is a tiny tiny dose and he'd be willing to do so. I don't plan on actually going in until my physical, 6 weeks away. At that point I'll tell him the Xanax helps, but not to the degree that I need. I may add that it makes me at least a little happier, despite lack of total relief of anxiety. Maybe that will open the door if I mention happiness and indicate that I'm not! (btw, I haaaate the word depression. It's almost like a pop culture catch phrase now. I avoid it at all costs.)
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