Posted by CEK on May 31, 2006, at 17:25:09
In reply to Re: avoiding social situation (panic disorder), posted by heaven help me on May 31, 2006, at 7:41:35
Matt, I've never been able to do the party scene. Even in high school and college when everyone was having parties, I hated going to them. I felt so out of place even if I knew a few people there. I'm still that way. I could've died when I had to go to my husband's company Christmas party that was all the supervisors and big wigs there. I begged him not to make me go, but he said I had to go with him. I wished I could've spent the night hid under the table or in the bathroom. It was horrible! I even hate going to his families gatherings they have at Easter and Christmas and find every excuse in the world not to go. I know all of these people, but can not stand to be there with all of them together. I'm ok one on one, but all of them, I just can't think of anything to say and feel so awkward. I feel very self concious around a group of people, like they're all looking at me thinking that I look fatter than last time they saw me or sizing me up or something. My husband doesn't understand the way I feel and it always ends up in an arguement whenever a social occasion comes up. I feel this way even when I have to go to the store and even at work. I guess it's just my own insecurities and the way I feel about myself, but I can't make it stop. Are there meds for this? Therapy hasn't helped any, and so far none of my meds have helped either. If I had my way, I guess I'd just stay in the house forever and never leave.
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