Posted by TheMeekOne on January 23, 2006, at 22:25:39
In reply to Re: How Can I Become Aggressive? » Declan, posted by Jakeman on January 23, 2006, at 20:16:54
Thank you all for your responses. I'll do a testosterone check (never thought of that). I'll also try Adderall.
Before Lexapro, which I've been taking for about a year now, I was the same in terms of lack of aggressiveness and assertiveness. In fact, I've been that way since childhood. I managed to get by in the adult years because I had a good job in a large private bureaucratic company for about 19 years -- staring almost immediately after college -- until there was a massive consolidation in my section, and I had to quit in December '04. Until that consolidation, my former section was great to work in: there were so many levels of command that no one made any decisions on almost anything without speaking to ten different people both inside the section and with a few other sections -- and typically after long face-to-face meetings or extensive conference calls. In July '05, a sick relative asked me (as I was the only one unemployed or unemployable in the family) to run his retail business that I'm in now, and in which I'm now suffering for lack of assertiveness/aggression. I'm active in the business and always busy; if people are nice, I deal with them well. The problem is dealing with rude, egotistic people. It's not that I don't experience rage at them at all; to the contrary, I'd be steaming inside but for some reason, I can't let it out and tell them, for example, to make up their mind and buy or get out.
I tried behavioral and other therapies in the last few years while I was employed (I knew bad things were coming at the company), and actually I was getting worse. I think that, at this time, pills are my only choice. I really don't care whether or not the pills are going to cause an "unsafe" rage. I need to get the steam out.
I tried Remeron but barely could keep my eyes open while on it, and Wellbutrin made me jumpy.
Sorry for the long post. Appreciate your responses and interest.
TheMeekOne.
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