Posted by Maxime on October 7, 2005, at 14:58:09
In reply to Re: Why can't it leave me alone? » Maxime, posted by SLS on October 7, 2005, at 11:54:55
I took my first OD when I was 4. So I guess 4. I told my mom that the world was ugly.
Going to school was really traumatic for me for various reasons. I don't remember really feeling happy except when I was really, really, young.
Although I haven't been happy I have still been able to push myself to do well in school and go on to do my Masters degree. I have held down high stress and high responsibility jobs. Very high functioning my PDOCS have always said. That is mainly to please someone, especially my parents (now there is just my mom, but I feel like my dad is looking down and shaking his head). But it's always there. Then the anorexia gets worse. And I don't know where one begins and the other ends.
And now I am really tired again and I have to go bed.
I've missed you Scott.
Maxime
> Hi Maxime.
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> > I just want to be semi-normal to know what it feeld like.
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> Can you remember a time when you felt better?
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> There is a certain timelessness about depression. It seems to have no beginning and no end.
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> There usually is a beginning, though.
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> How old were you when your illness first appeared?
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> - Scott
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