Posted by denise1966 on October 6, 2005, at 6:09:52
In reply to Re: Not sure what to do next? Advice Needed » denise1966, posted by ed_uk on October 5, 2005, at 14:41:30
Hi Ed,
I do like Zyprexa but don't want to take it regularly or long term, the same thing would apply to abilify or seroquel.
The reason is and you might not see the logic in this but:-
I suffered from mild unmedicated depression from 17 to 24, I could still function ok but didn't really look forward to or enjoy anything, then it seemed to get worse. I finally burst into tears at the Doctors office and he prescribed dothiepin which I didn't want to take because I didn't believe I was depressed, I thought I was physically ill.
Anyway, I succumbed and took the dothiepin and I felt wonderful on it. Suddenly I felt extremely fortunate that I had an illness that was so instantly treatable. Years later the dothiepin (prothiaden) seemed to stop working so I switched to Paxil which also worked brilliantly and in a very short space of time.
When I finally came off Paxil when I was about 30, I thought my depression was just a thing of the past, something that I just suffered from when I was younger. And I thought to myself if I ever did get depressed again it would be simple, I'd just hide away for a couple of weeks until the Paxil (Seroxat) started working again.
The thing is it never turned out like that, I got suicidally depressed and everything I took bar (Zyprexa) just seemed to make me worse. I spent 2 years resisting taking zyprexa just because I wanted the ADs to work like they used to and couldn't understand why they didn't. I've lost that sense of security I used to have now about Ads, about it being that simple and it scares me.
I don't want to take Zyprexa, Abilify or Seroquel regularly and then suddenly become tolerant to it because then I wouldn't have anything to fall back on. Does that make any sense?
All I want to do is find something to augment an AD with to make the ad work again. I was relieved two years ago when the Paxil seemed to start to help a bit because it made me feel that little bit less resistant.
Kind Regards....Denise
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