Posted by bimini on July 23, 2005, at 22:03:45
In reply to Re: Dissociative Panic yes ACE.. I do.., posted by spriggy on July 22, 2005, at 20:53:52
That is it. Like a dream, mechanical and weaving. I cannot think myself out of it though, it is as there are no thoughts in my mind, all fluff, a breeze, a ripple and I don't feel panic, rather floaty, unreal, like I am rolling on wheels. I have rolled into walls because I can't maneuver the wheels I'm on.
I went up an escalator and vanished a short time after getting on. At the end people behind me bunched up and shoved me off the escalator. I rolled straight into a wall ahead, then could not turn. I yelled in my mind LEFT! Minutes later I managed to slowly walk. I sat on a bench exhausted, wanted to go to sleep right there.
Thinking it was the escalator I went back for some more escalator riding. It has a weird effect of distorting motion, disturbs my sense of balance but doesn't produce dissociation on cue. Finding triggers is like chasing a ghost, I've stopped trying to figure it out.
bimini
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