Posted by Denise1966 on June 30, 2005, at 9:48:27
In reply to Re: To Mr Scott - More questions for you » Denise1966, posted by Mr.Scott on June 29, 2005, at 23:48:57
Hi Mr Scott,
Thanks for getting back to me, both on this thread and the one concerning ECT and it's affects on Speech.
The feelings you described on taking SSRIs are pretty much the ones I'm experiencing now, muscle stiffness/rigidity, emotional flatness, apathy etc, actually the numbness istn't just emotional it's like a physical feeling of numbness as well which is hard to describe, like my breathing muscles are numb. Although I've not had any anxiety recently. The fustrating thing is with this there doesn't seem to be anything I can do to change the way I feel, I tried playing tennis the other day with a friend but it only helped a little not enough to make a difference. I also tried swimming and playing board games but all the time I just feel as though I'm going through the motions.
Lamical and lithium did absolutely nothing for me, the only drug that I can count on to actually make me feel any good (touch wood)(and that's if taken with an SSRI is Zyprexa 10mg.
Anyway, I know you and the other Scott (SLS) said you have to give yourself time to adjust but to be quite honest I'm sick of trying to give these meds time to take affect. It's been 4 long years, 2 of which felt bearable and I actually started to feel like I was enjoying life. Feel's like the Party's over now though.
Anyway, I know the seroxat and this addition of Remeron is not helping me enough, so it's time to do a drug switch for a while and try out ECT.
I was thinking perhaps that the reason that the Seroxat seemed to start helping two years ago was maybe because I'd taken Nardil for a month prior to taking it. I was hoping that Nardil maybe did something to my brain (even though I didn't like being on it) to help me respond to the Seroxat. Maybe that's just wishful thinking though.
Trouble is the psychiatrist who said she was willing to put me forward for ECT has gone off sick so I have to wait for her to come back to work and don't want to have to wait for much longer.
I've just been made redudant and I think everyone here at work is suprised at how well I've taken it, what they don't realise though is that I don't really care. All I care about is this horrible depression and how to get rid of it once and for all.
I'm not worried about having ECT as I really don't know what to expect from it but I am worried that it won't help. I tried rTMS last year and it didn't help me at all.
Anyway, thanks again for responding, if I do have a course of ECT I'll let you know how I get on.
Kind Regards.......Denise
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