Posted by willyee on June 25, 2005, at 15:04:43
In reply to Its over for me !!!, posted by linkadge on June 24, 2005, at 14:30:24
> I don't even want to talk about it. This was the worst experience of my life.
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> I drove 2 1/2 hours, spilled the beans, gave him pages and pages of symptoms I was having on the meds. The apointment lasted literally 9 minuates, I timed it.
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> It really eeks away at you when you go over these apointments for months, loose sleep over them too. Wrack your brain to think of what might help, and you get absolutely no respect, compassion, or sincerity. Any insignt I had into my problem was just an insignifianct manifestation of my anxious persionality in his mind.
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> I'm still shaking from the anxiety I worked myself into before the appointment.
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> Its useless to even hope about better treatments and better medications, theres not much point to me even being here, on this site, trying to get a better idea of what might help, when in the end I am so darned helpless as to any ability I have any input into my treatment.
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> Sorry folks, I've got to take another break from the site, hope is just too damn depressing.
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YOU ARE SOOOOOOOO not alone,i remeber waiting weeks for my appointment,to have my doc barly look me in the face,and blow me off so fast my head is spinning,i leave the office with something i dident want,as well as my head spinning.Thats why my parents,and prob many people who read my posts cant understand why i seem to run my own attempts at medication on my own.I tried to get help,i extended my sould out to these doctors and in turn i was almost killed.As bad off as i get self medicating,i have never once since harmed myself or thought it,HOWEVER when was under a docs care i listened and listened and stayed on effexor for weeks and weeks while BEGGING to get off,i remember putting a knife to my neck once,my dog somehow snapped me out of it and i relaised i would never do such a thing,i threw effexor out that day,along with a lot of respect for the docters and industry.I came across parnate on MY OWN DOING,and had to go through tons of docs to get it,now that parnate is telling me its tired and needs a break,i again am in ground zero,i wish very badly i could find a doc with compassion and knowledge,id prob break down in tears in their office due to overwelhming shock.
My primary doctor was so nice and caring,recorded all our sessions,and he feels terrable hes not allowed to fully treat me,something is wrong with our sysytem,linkadge its all of us friend .
poster:willyee
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