Posted by iforgotmypassword on May 4, 2005, at 21:33:14
In reply to Re: always slept with the light on., posted by Rjlockhart98 on May 4, 2005, at 19:59:38
i used to worry about supernatural stuff when i was younger, but i usually am just worried that someone is hiding where i can't see them so they can kill or hurt me. i don't think i'd go so far as to call it paranoia, but it's definately a fear i have to make friends aware of. if i wake up in a room that is dark in the middle of the night i will quite often panic. it can be pretty embarassing. especially one time i started screaming in my apartment when the power went out and i started running around naked until i made it to my door and my neighbour's found me. i am also scared of things that can't hurt me though like my cat when i can't see where he is. it makes no sense.
i almost never watch television or movies (which i consider to be due to my depression) but when i do, horror movies really scare me and i have to sleep with the light on with someone else around. the movie 'the grudge' absolutely terrified me, while everyone else i knew that had seen it found it silly and cheesy (including my ex-girlfriend who had brought me to see it :\). i was scared for weeks of that lady's face and the way she would appear. i had to call friends in the middle of the night and once roamed my apartment buildings hallways looking to see if anyone was up.
i think in my case it is a fear and uncertainty of the unknown that has shaped every aspect of my life (especially my ability to make decisions).
i guess i'm more wondering though, if my cowardly personality traits would suggest anything about what ADs (or other meds) would help me?
maybe risperdal *would* help me? i am also extremely amotivated and ruminate endlessly about things that deeply upset me. i actually have some that i tried to start, but by the second day i was feeling very physically weak and stopped taking it. do side effects like that go away? i have enough problems with lethargy, i don't want them to get worse. thanx!
xo
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