Posted by barbaracat on January 3, 2005, at 20:35:02
In reply to Re: Those are hypomanias » barbaracat, posted by banga on January 3, 2005, at 20:08:39
Amen to that. Depression really derails life. It's bad enough when other people are blaming us for not coming through, but when we're beating on ourselves - yuck, very counterproductive and very sad. Gollum comes to mind. When you get down to it, though, I can't think of too many people who aren't very screwed up in one way or another. But, yeah, they might be sad and frustrated but the messy house thing and avoiding calls is indicative of how bad it really is.
The thing is, I love a clean orderly environment. Some people couldn't care less, but I do, very much so. I go into cleaning overdrive when I'm feeling well. It's just real tough to keep things in order when I'm putting the car keys in the refrigerator, the scissors in the hamper, etc. I've really done this and it's funny in retrospect, but when I can't find those those car keys it's not so funny. Thankfully, I've got a husband who just shakes his head and does his best to keep things sane.
> Yes, the fallout is so awful. For me its the depression--all the avoided phone calls, undone projects, broken deadlines and promises, and yes the messy house,...it must get so old for those who know me, to have me one day come into the room with sort of an "I'm back and on the ball!!" attitude, only to have me slip away from the radar screen yet again for weeks on end.
> The self-loathing is agony. The amount of relief you get in saying to yourself--"you're not iresponsible, lazy and uncaring, you have a disease" is very minimal.
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