Posted by bimini on December 15, 2004, at 14:54:17
In reply to SCHIZOPHRENIA - with or without voices, posted by pretty_paints on December 12, 2004, at 13:17:22
1)brain injury
2)sudden, starting in 2002
3)I lose awareness of reality
4)Visual halluzinations, lack of sound
5)1 1/2 years for the brain injury diagnosisI have been posting on different boards about my symptoms, told all my friends, family and even my employer.
I have been diagnosed with a mix of problems, schizophrenia dx has been mentioned as well. I don't seem to fit in perfectly with any of the dx's, I am exploring each and try the recommended meds. I think I am a science project, was denied a PET scan to find what is really going on in my noodle.It started when I reported to my primary care physician that I wasn't able to see right and I was fading out. I was sent to a neurologist who ordered a MRI scan of the brain. The scan showed a lesion at the occipital horn and several foci, mainly in the parietal lobe. I was prescribed Effexor and betablockers and sent to an ophthalmologist. He gave me glasses for my halluzinations, LOL! so I can see them better. Noone really was listening to me to what I had to say.
My vision went from perfect, no glasses to multiples, glare and streaks, color toggling, overall pattern, no depth perception, not understanding movement, not recognizing objects, misconstruing the mess of information trying to make sense. I could not read as words move or are written with an alphabet I don't recognize. Objects get translated wrong while I am aware of improbables. Well, this did cause me some confusion as to how am I supposed to know when something isn't obvious enough? For example I saw a train travelling to my right as I was driving in a car in my home town, but knowing that there were no tracks I dismissed the image. Will I always know fake from real? When I saw a horse in the parking lot I was amused by the entertainment my mind is providing. When I saw a frog in the snow I stopped to see if it was real. It didn't jump away and as I picked it up I found it was a pinecone.
I reported to my virtual friends in cyberspace I was glad I mistook a pinecone as a frog and didn't see pinecones jumping instead. At times objects I see previously superimpose onto something else. There is some color toggling or all colors go vivid.
I am practicing behavioral vision therapy under guidance of an optometrist since 10 months which improved alignment (multiples), teaming (wobble, wavelike effect) and focus. Depth perception now provides better understanding of where things are in relation to me, movement does throw it off to some delayed response.
Vision therapy has provided me with direct feedback to when visual processing suspends and for how long. I suspect the processing gap explains not understanding all sound or other input. I am mostly not aware as it happens, I am just missing.In the morning when I wake up I perceive shapes in peripheral vision, they are there with eyes closed too, move and disappear. I am not distressed by my halluzinations, I am distressed by my psychiatrist who thinks I'm seeing creepy monsters when I get startled by movement. I tried Abilify to calm down dopamine, that gave me vicegrip headaches.
bimini
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