Posted by saw on December 8, 2004, at 1:40:18
In reply to Re: Extreme agitation, irritibility, sedation » saw, posted by jay on December 7, 2004, at 16:12:07
Hi Jay
If I think about it, I can't say that I hate my life, but rather that I hate the stresses in my life and I hate being sick. Yes, I hate being sick. This depression has robbed me of the ability to be happy and enjoy my life which is not all that bad. I am newly married and have a wonderful, loving and supportive husband. I have many blessings that I am unable to appreciate because my ability to enjoy them are stolen from me daily by nasty chemicals that don't play the game.
I think my pdoc has tried the mood stabilizer route because I am so treatment resistant. I have tried many AD's, I won't list them all. I gained weight on each and every one of them. She assured me lamictal was weight neutral. Umm, no - continued to gain. I started topamax last night. Now this one is supposed to be known for weight loss. Will wait and see.
After about 7 weeks on topamax, if my raging moods have stabilised, she would like to combine with cymbalta.
Why does a mood stabilizer make my moods worse? I am angry ALL the time.
It would be safer to offer a diagnosis than symptoms as I would be typing those all day. I have major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder and possible bipolar II. I suffer panic attacks and my probable worst problem right now is my utterly destroyed self image and self esteem. My pdoc has asked me to consider ECT in the new year. I am still too afraid to give it more thought.
Are you the Jay that was listening to Purple rain and watching the sunset a while back?
Sabrina
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