Posted by SuzieWong on November 22, 2004, at 18:09:08
I'm having a really bad day today...I feel so depressed its making me feel weak and yet I have to carry on and know thats the best thing too.
I have the old stomach churning, dropping kind of depression and I'm sort of scared that the Prozac is pooping out.
However, I've been using a light box for the last few weeks and I haven't used it for about 3 days so maybe it really does work and this is what i'd be like if I wasn't using it. Its effect seemed to be quite difficult to work out but maybe it really was working.
I take a really low dose, 3ml, of Prozac and 5mg of Buspar which has been almost fine so long as I keep myself busy and active. Now that the winter is creeping in more and more perhaps I should increase the dose.
But, I'm scared about how long i've been taking these medications for...about 8 years. I know that when I tried to come off Citalopram last year it took me 9 months and I felt like my world was ending when in fact I had only taken it for anxiety. I'm now left with this crippling depression but not so much anxiety .
As you can probably tell I'm really confused because I never thought I was depressed before and now its horrendous without taking something. I walk 2 miles a day and try to play tennis twice a week. I try to keep busy with work but I'm left with a feeling of "whats everything about". Is that depression and would I stop feeling like that if I took more medication. I can't possibly do anymore for myself with the exercise.
poster:SuzieWong
thread:419072
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