Posted by prodgirl on September 29, 2004, at 16:36:46
In reply to Running out of options and meds to try!!!!!!!, posted by elainen on September 29, 2004, at 15:48:18
> Thanks for your story. It makes so much difference to know I am not special.You are not the only one, however, remember, you are special.
Why is it that the ones we love do not understand? Maybe it is because they cannot see it - much like the addage that a man does not get pregnancy until the second trimester, when you start to show. There is no tangible evidence. Maybe it is that they are too afraid to look inside themselves.
I am self employed, ie, a freelancer. It is so hard to work at times. I will lay in bed for two days in a row, crying, and not be able to look for work. I only work about 5-6 mo/yr because of this. Most people would think that is a luxury, but it is nearly impossible to be a single woman and survive, especially with no insurance. I make too much to qualify for state assistance, sometimes my meds are $500/mo, depending on the flavor of the month.
I am deathly afraid to tell my pdoc about how suicidal I can get. She is supposed to be there to help me, but somehow, I am fearful. Maybe that she will want to hospitalize me, which I cannot afford. Maybe we need to make a pact to both say it next time we have an appt.
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