Posted by verne on September 4, 2004, at 22:31:17
In reply to Re: Thanks all - I'm done. » SLS, posted by jerrympls on September 4, 2004, at 21:04:14
Jerry,
Hang in there. I know that's cliche but I hit bottom about 14 years ago (late 30's at the time) and a song I didn't especially care for had the lyric "hang on for one more day". I was in such acute emotional pain I didn't think I would make it. (that song actually helped me)
Like you I was on a lot of meds and lived among piles of my belongings. I lived out of a laundry basket and the biggest heap of clothes in the room was actually my bed. Being a bit of a neatfreak I could never come to grips with how I was actually living.
But in my 30's my condition improved. I stopped any sort of self-injury (borderline personality disorder) by 32 without any effort on my part. Even though I didn't do much constructive, just by growing older, the acute pain diminished by itself. I have to think the body's chemical changes as it ages may help in some cases.
Anyway, I'm chiming in a little late. Glad you didn't bail out. Remember you "belong" - mess, path to the couch and all. When you look at it just affirm, "this is exactly the way it should be!"
I can't deal with the heat either. I'm so thankful Fall is approaching. Perhaps by next summer you can get a better AC unit so you don't have to sit right next to it.
take care,
verne
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