Posted by AMD on April 18, 2004, at 13:40:59
Folks,
I've been on an up-and-down ride for about three months now, where I'll feel "normal" for about a week, and then something will trigger a depression, which will be terrible for a few days, but then subside.
I've been diagnosed bipolar I and am taking 25 mg Lamictal and 40 mg Celexa daily (in the mornings).
Is this rapid cycling?
Something odd, though, is that the depression never just comes on. It only comes on when I do something to trigger it, which in my case is typically health related. For example, last week I noticed by pupils were different sizes, and within a day, after obsessing, I became very depressed and left for about 36 hours. I went to the doctor twice just to confirm I was OK.
By Friday, I was feeling good, mind alert, productive, intelligent. Then, I'm riding on an escalator, and I think I feel a slight shock (a buzzy kind, not a sparkish kind) while touching a metal part below the hand rail. As silly as it sounds, suddenly I'm obsessed that I've done electrical damage to my brain... I ruminate, and within a couple of hours I'm debiliated by depression. Again, I've slept all weekend. Now it's Sunday, and I'm hoping this will subside soon, but I'm still obsessing and depressed -- my mind is full of thoughts such as 'you did brain damage,' or 'you'll never feel the way you did Friday again' ... and I don't feel as lucid in my communication.
What is this!?
poster:AMD
thread:337432
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