Posted by wayne on April 5, 2004, at 21:36:00
In reply to Re: i am lost and in pain (PS), posted by Dauphine on April 5, 2004, at 14:36:32
thank you guys for the advice, im glad i found this website. This drama has seemed like an addiction, but i think the reason why is because we are so deeply in love. We both agree that we would never put up with this in any normal relationship, but there is some weird animalistic attraction that is not just to do with looks that we both cannot get over. The thing that sucks so much now is that we have talked over the phone and she keeps telling me that she loves me and wants to be with me but she cannot be with someone that has hit her. Its like she is making me feel so guilty for that situation, which i agree and admit was totally handled the wrong way, and for the record i have never done anything like this before and thats why i am so confused and baffled in what to do. I am a person that fights for what he loves, and i go and get what i want with everything i have. I have not tried to see her yet because i know if i do i probably will work this all out. The twist in this whole drama is that she is going to california this sunday, and is going to be gone til next sunday with her girlfriends. This has long been an issue with us cause i felt so insecure about her going, that i feel now that with this trip she is definelty going to get over me, and i am going to be in so much more agony thinking about what she is doing out there. My friends all tell me to give her space and distance, and she will come back to me, but i feel like the space will just help her get over me more, and that is what is killing me. 2 months ago i was ready to end everything, but she came to me and told me that she wanted to prove how much she loves me and how much better this realtionship can be. I fell for her again, and all my feelings for her came back that second on, and thats why i hurt so bad now, cause my feelings for this girl are at the utmost peak...I cant sleep, eat, or think about work, all i am doing is waiting by my phone, or computer, waiting for her to contact me...This is so much torture
poster:wayne
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