Posted by Dalilah on January 15, 2004, at 20:41:36
In reply to Re: Stuck in Bipolar Hell, posted by Angielala on January 15, 2004, at 12:13:24
Thanks for the write backs (La La and Girl)
Once again it helps so much to know there are people who understand. I have several bipolar friends but they don't necessarily experience the same bipolar as me.
Here I go again. I've tried the Wellbutring and it REALLY didn't work for me. I may be allergic in fact. I couldn't stop puking and diarrhea (no wonder you lose weight!) It's not my drug. It seems none of the AD's work for me thus far and I'm happy to stay away. They make me manicy and then nothing. It's as if I was taking aspirin.
Thank god for Lamictal. Thanks for telling me you're on 400mg of Lam. Most people I talk to are on 100 and I'm thinking 300 is crazy high. That's just good to know I can go up if I have to. (what else are you on? I'm curious.)
My Bipolar Regiment: 8-9 hours of sleep a night, keep mood chart every morning (highly recommended http://www.manicdepressive.org/tools.html), write 3 pages in my journal, eat oatmeal and very healthy stuff (vegan), exercise 3 times a week, and take my meds.
And after all that I still get mixed states. It's just frustrating. And when I talk to others they seems like, "oh yeah, me too, I feel up and down too." They don't realize how hard I work to get JUST up and down. Not psychotic and dreaming of death. Everytime I get just a little bit depressed I start fantasizing about suicide. I realize that doesn't sound healthy, but it always gives me comfort.
When I write these things I think, maybe, just maybe, I'm still in a Mixed.
Dalilah
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