Posted by MamaCindy2000 on November 24, 2003, at 15:23:20
In reply to How Do you PRETEND PRETEND PRETEND to be OKAY?, posted by PrincessWorkstooMuch on November 24, 2003, at 12:30:51
A young person on the board posted "for evey smile I fake, I cry a thousand tears". and that should sum it up, its the story of my life. I work everyday. I have a three year son. I am solely responsible for him. His father doesnt help, Im single.
3 weeks ago I had to move back in my parents. I had a "meltdown" as I call it. Humiliating to be 27 and still this way. It takes every bit of energy in my body, mind and soul to get through my day. I have crying spells at work, i go in the bathroom and say to myself "keep it together,keep it together, keep it together" Im doing a good job right now, keeping it together. My eyes well up just writing this. My boss' daughter is bipolar, I think that is the only reason I still have my job. Wellbutrin,Darvocet,and sometimes alcohol,pot, and xanex help. Since on the Wellbutrin, I use the others considerably less.
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