Posted by River1924 on July 24, 2003, at 11:46:47
In reply to Re: agorophobia, SSRI's, klonipin other fears, posted by AndyD on July 24, 2003, at 6:37:11
Good Luck. You call the medication "crud." I guess I understand...I suppose over the years I've gotten used to taking them. For a long time (and honestly I still do sometimes) thought I was defective, weak, unmanly...but I've learned to accept my imperfection and live with it. I think that is part of maturity. Can you offer more to yourself and the world on medication? If so, it is the right decision. If I had read many of these Psycho-Babble rantings about side-effects prior to taking meds, I'd have been very reluctant. Just take it slow...half a milligram or so to start with...everybody's body is different. For one month I lived at Zen Mountain Monastery in New York and I think that is the only place I could live without meds...structure, meditation, astute companions and social support. But unless I decide to live as a monk, I have to survive out here in the wider world. So I take meds. My need to take meds may just indicate the ramped up modern world isn't right for my highstrung body and mind. As I think about it, I imagine you have memories of less anxious self (prior to the war) and it is frustrating to have become a new self that you probably like less. That's understandable but you are the you you are now. Sorry for babbling...Good Luck whatever you decide.
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