Posted by tepiaca on July 9, 2003, at 23:49:56
hi guys ,
I took antipsychotics for 2 years , I was suffering something similar to paranoia , thoughts like everybody is against me , they are trying to hurt me , and alot more stuff.
I left this drugs 1 year ago
Im very worried about have to take them again ,because I thougth my problem was just a thing of a couple of years.
My problem is that some things that were gone , or at least they were less severe , are returning again . For example ... I cant stop thinking about what people thinks about me , its impossible , my head is always so full with this , I dont feel free , its very frustating ,to the point that I cant even say one word . My only defense , wich I hate , is to
fake a big smile always when a person says something to me ,I can not respond him with words , like a normal person . My insecurity is huge!! . Im 23 , once a little boy of 17 years ,
started to say bad things about me , i couldnt do anything I was frigthened like is the people in front of me were the devil , that was in front of many of my old friends , I felt so embarrased and frustated . I hate my life , I dont enjoy anything , Im just like a robot who does the same things all the days , I dont like it . I think I have nothing good to give to the world
hope you can say something
poster:tepiaca
thread:240456
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