Posted by bretbe on April 25, 2003, at 12:02:37
In reply to Re: sueT...in same boat!?, posted by sueT on April 20, 2003, at 12:57:44
Well, I've had similar go-arounds with p-docs...latest is going the Bipolar NOS route but I've been wondering if it is more related to an anxiety disorder of some type. I too have funtioned well until the last year (e.g., grad school, jobs, etc.) but pain has become unbearable after all the years. I kept myself going with "when I graduate I'll feel better," "when I get a job," etc., but I never did. I've heard of Topomax...maybe I'll give it a go if it is calming and do less ruminating which I do. I'm a very guilt-driven/laden person. I tried Lamictal and it was painful...too activating I think. I'm not sure what you mean by emotional/relational but aside from the pain in my head, I feel very numb emotionally as if it is impossible to "feel" love for people I "know" I love, e.g., family...hard on relationships for sure. Also, I feel like there's this cloud, or something in my brain seperating me from experiencing things I used to feel such a connection to, like going to the beach, a pretty sunset, etc...I'm just numb inside to the positive and have...all I can describe it as a type of mental, or pain in my psyche or something that often feel down in my chest to where one would normally have an emotional heart...I feel heartless!
Well, thanks for the info on the web-site...I look it up! Good luck to you as well.
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