Posted by TommyTommy on March 2, 2003, at 18:23:32
For years I have been stuck between a rock and a hard place trying to diagnosis myself properly and of coarse have a doctor give me the proper diagnosis so I can get a grip on my problems once and for all. Of coarse I have depression and anxiety-------as they are both a reaction to anything upsetting the mind, but trying to get to the root of the problem has been very difficult. All along since the beginning I have been having nonstop obsessive thoughts ranging from: What is the meaning of life? Questioning right from wrong became such an obsessive thought pattern that I literally was convincing myself that things I was taught that were right just as easily could be wrong and vice versa. Basically I was philosophying into things so deep that I was bringing my brain into a strange state of mind. Then I started analyzing the brain and realized that thoughts could just trigger emotions and from that point on I was conviced that we didn't have free will. I then started to think that we are all just robots with brains because if our brain gets sick or damaged, we can'
t function. I know all of this sounds strange but it consumed me and even though I know it is absurd, it holds power and grip over me. Does this sound more like a phobia and the phobia is causing the obsessive thiking? It has affected me to the point of where one single thought can change me completely. I can literally think to myself "What if I'm not comfortable talking anymore with this person who is so close to me?" And like a magic wond.........this strange thought becomes a reality. Please give me some insight anyone who reads this.Thanks,
Tommy
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