Posted by fluffy on October 26, 2002, at 15:16:11
Wow.
I just read a really long thread about Cyclothymia on this BB. And just finished a really, really tearful conversation with my father over lunch.
For the past couple of months, I have been struggling with a really MAJOR bout of depression. To make a long story short...
I have been put on Lexapro for this particular bout, and have gotten WORSE! I have been really, really agitated and crying all the time. I have been having a hard time understanding how I can be so depressed and brain-dead for two months, when only a few months before I was so active and creative--solving all kinds of problems.
This morning, I read a description of Cyclothymia, and it made so much sense. After having a long discussion with my father, it turns out that he has also suffered from the same creative bursts and depressive jags.
Not only that, but my father's mother was given shock treatment for some type of mental disorder in the fifties, and was never diagnosed, and never recovered.Suddenly, I'm realizing that I need to be really straight with my Psychiatrist...I never wanted to be called BP, because I never had DANGEROUS upswings. But the downswings have seemed increasingly more dangerous for me...thoughts of hurting myself and/or suicidal thoughts.
I am an artist as well as many of the people who chimed in about cyclothymia on this BB. I'm a bit afraid about losing the creative side, but I'm also feeling afraid of my down moods.
Has anyone else has similar experiences? I could use some support.
poster:fluffy
thread:125331
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