Posted by IsoM on June 5, 2002, at 1:05:13
In reply to Re: Scared, but hopeful- I was just diagnosed with ADD, posted by katekite on June 4, 2002, at 13:13:47
Katekite, when I read your post I laughed in recognition - not that my projects have been quite as adventurous as yours. I hope you don't mind me butting in this thread.
There's so much I want to accomplish & just try. Unfortunately, I know I'll never be able to. I don't have the money, the resources, or the manpower needed (e.g. - a stone project I have in mind requires money for the right stones & brute strength - both something I don't have). I won't bother listing all the things I really want to do & know I could do a great job too. Like you & the camel you want, I very much want an elephant (among quite a few other animals). Realistic? Not in the slightest, but it doesn't stop me from dreaming about it. While I prefer to be alone, I, too, am fascinated by people & find I'm very people-oriented, but after being around others for a while, I need to retreat & recharge in privacy.
Ritalin affects me quite differently than you. The highs are too short with it & the low is so abrupt. Dexedrine does me well but still, I dislike the feeling when it wears off. I supplement the adrafinil I take now with occasional Dexedrine.
About ADs, especially SSRIs - for me, they've opened up a wit & humour that while I knew I had, I couldn't express it easily like I do now. It also served to curb my impulsiveness (speech mostly). It didn't dull me but gave me a balance I didn't have before. I still feel an overwhelming rush of ideas of so many things I want to do but am unable to. In a way, I feel cheated but I look at that which I have done & enjoy those. I wonder how many unfulfilled & unrealised inventions, cures, new plants, breeds of animals, new useful chemical compounds, etc are out there in the dreams of aspirations of intelligent, creative people with ADD? Mind boggling probably.
P.S. What is this breed of cat you're involved in? I'm dying to know. As soon as something new catches my interest, I need to read up & research it as much as possible.
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