Posted by janejj on May 6, 2002, at 21:54:13
In reply to Re: Update » janejj, posted by IsoM on May 6, 2002, at 15:55:20
Hello IsoM,
I can relate completely. When I feel down I feel like it'll never end, or even if I am happy for a day that the agony will always surface again and then I feel as though its really not worth living.
I look back on the diary that I have kept since I was 12 years old and realise that most the time I was depressed, except I didn't know what it was back then and I can see the pattern that you are describing. I generally thought I was incapable of having fun and I had this bad feeling in my stomach and fog in my head for days,I thought it would never end, I was convinced. Then a week later I'd feel happier and I'd wonder what all the fuss was about.
You'd think we'd learn that it can end, but when you're there in the depths of all that pain it just feels like a bottomless pit.
Hope that you are feeling in good spirits at the moment .
Do you live in Canada ?
Take care,
janejj
> It does seem to come & go, doesn't it? Some called it a swing, I think of a yo-yo. Trouble is when one is feeling at the low end, it feels like it's going to be permanent & never improve, doesn't it? Even after years of this (& really knowing what to expect), I'm always convinced that I'll never feel better again. It's that powerful a feeling. I'm not sure I'd want to hang on if it never did get better.
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