Posted by mickey on August 10, 2001, at 11:10:35
In reply to Re: Art and depression - Wendy, posted by mickey on August 9, 2001, at 19:38:24
"There is no one to beat you, no one to defeat you, except the thoughts of yourself feeling bad"
From Romona by B. Dylan
These "thoughts", where do they come from? I have analized this peculiarity for many years. I know we weren't born with them. I also realize they have many faces. The obvious source would appear to be our primary care givers. We thus begin to develop and internalize a vision of ourselves. Whatever that vision may be we begin to act out this representation. For some it may be blessings and for others a curse.
For those of us short on blessings but stygmatized by curses it would seem we begin to turn on ourselves. Some people gain inner strenght and can fight off these demons or ghosts. I have studied cognitive therapy for some time and have been focused on the critical parent ego state. What a monster it can be.
And what havoc it can wreak on the child ego state. The only thing that stands between the two is the adult ego state (logical and rational) which in many cases seems to shrink into oblivion.
My therapist suggests that "these thoughts" lower seratonin levels. That cleared some things up for me and makes a great deal of sense regarding Dysthymia (depression as a life style).
It is all terribly fascinating and disturbing at the same time. My therapist has pointed out that if one lacks a powerful nurturing parent ego state then we must invent our own. For me, my father died when I was seven. I have been instructed to create a nurturing father within, or mother, whatever the case may be.
I am sure you all know this stuff but I felt I had to write it out. This is quite a challenge. Do you have any ideas on how to procceed?
"Sometimes I feel like a feather in the wind.
A long way from home"from "Sometimes I Feel Like a Motherless Child."
Mickey
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