Posted by Kath on August 11, 2000, at 11:39:31
In reply to Tired, alone, feeling closed off..., posted by tdaneen on August 11, 2000, at 10:20:12
Hi T. I'm going to answer this throughout your post; easier to be conversational for me that way....
> Alright, alright... I KNOW it is another stupid phase it is going to pass...blah, blah, blah.
> I am tired. I feel waterlogged. You know? Like when you were a kid and played in the pool for far too long. You get out and all the bouyancy you had in the pool is gone, and it is back to the usual gravity, but it feels so much heavier. That is how I feel now. It has just been getting worse.....................I'm really sorry you're feeling so bad. Sounds like really DOWN & even if you know it'll pass it's still really sh**ty to be in it, right?
> I forgot my nighttime meds for three nights in a row. Somehow, I didn't get the message for my pdoc appointment, so now I can't get in for another whole month.
.............Maybe forgetting the meds has played a major part in how you're feeling? Just a thought about the appointment - are you on a waiting list in case there's a cancellation?
My husband (separated for 8 1/2 months) NOW thinks he can handle being a Bipolar significant other. It is one of the reasons he wanted the divorce, you see. He couldn't handle me and the moods, etc, etc.
> He went as far as to buy some pricy earrings for me. Well, I'm not going to be bought............seems like the name of a good therapist you could go to together would be more of an indication of intent than a pair of earrings!!
He still hasn't shown me how he has "changed" after he had his epiphany. He has bought some books on bipolar illness (a prop to set out in his house??), I don't know if he is reading them.
> I had even started dating again (being as the divorce has been in the works for months now). The man I am seeing wants a serious (read VERY in front of that serious) relationship...........regarding relationships, no matter who they end up being with: please take your time - nobody's going to go away if they really care & if they do, it's better to know that's the type of person they are; try to quietly feel exactly what YOU need - not ANYONE else!!
> Oh, I could go on, (and would given a chance there is a LOT more, other stuff, other things), I just need to vent.
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> I am tired of feeling pulled and pushed, and muted.
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> AAAARRRGGGHH!!!!!.......................Vent away!!! You aren't muted here - the opposite. I, for one, want to know how you feel, what you're feeling etc. I hope that once you're taking all your daily meds you'll feel better. Perhaps each time you take meds, you can set your alarm clock for the time you have to take the next one?
Keep in touch. I care about you. Hugs, Kath
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