Posted by tina on June 10, 2000, at 16:32:21
Hi all, hope your days are going well. I'm just having a blah day. Not depressed exactly, just lethargic and unmotivated. The weather is crappy, my ass is expanding and my dog has hemorhoids. Don't know what the dog has to do with this but what the hell. I'm gaining weight, smoking more than ever, staring into the t.v like a zombie and I am in general disgust of myself. Whoa, what a saturday! Weekends always do this to me. What's with that? I need a job, a hobby, a cause, anything that can shake me out of my stupor. The fact is, I don't know if I'm ready to go back to a job, of any kind. The tiniest speck of stress and I turn into a blubbering idiot. I am afraid that I'm getting avoidant and that I'll never have the courage or inclination to work again. I've already lost the will to eat, exercise, walk the dog, shower, sleep, speak etc... I feel lost. What a downer huh? Sorry about that. Just don't want to bug my husband with yet another selfish rant so I rant here. I need help but I just don't know what kind. The meds are working, I'm not depressed. I just don't remember how to live anymore, my mind and body have forgotten. Where do you look, inside yourself, for the motivation to live your life. To all you go-getters out there, HELP---please.
poster:tina
thread:36859
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