Posted by Louisa on May 31, 2000, at 14:03:18
I've been doing really well the past few months --Paxil 40mg at night, and Wellbutrin SR15omg in the morning. I've been working nonstop on my dissertation, and feeling confident about finishing and confident about the quality of my work.
And then came yesterday. I got a chapter back from my advisor, who trashed it. Badly organized... too much stuff I didn't need... too much stuff I didn't have... A month of work down the drain, and not a lot of time left (for various reasons, I MUST finish by the beginning of September).
And today, I feel SO LOW. I can't even smile. I keep wanting to drop the whole dissertation, but then I don't have a career, and I'd be so ashamed that I just can't imagine living. I don't feel actively suicidal, but I do feel like I wish a bus would just take me out.
If I'm going to feel like this everytime I hand in another chapter, or get a bad review, there's not much point in my going on.
Anyone have any suggestions about how to cope with something like this? I really don't think it's a meds question, because everything was working fine until 10:30 a.m. yesterday, when I got the chapter back. And now I feel like hell.
Louisa
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