Posted by grrrilla on May 7, 2000, at 11:20:49
In reply to did my post appear anywhere?, posted by Vesper on May 6, 2000, at 21:02:43
> I can't say much right now, but I posted a message days ago, and was wondering if anyone saw it...it was very long and I don't have the energy to repeat it all right now, but I want to say that I am grateful for what I read when I looked at psychobabble a couple of days ago...maybe i will post again, if you all really want me to. I feel a stupid posting after all that, like maybe people will think I said goodbye to get attention..maybe I did,
-------------------------------It's ok to need attention Vesper. That's probably why most people are posting here (in some sense anyway). You don't have to say good-bye to get it though. Next time just post I NEED ATTENTION NOW!!!!!!!! and see if that works:)
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I don't really know what I am doing anymore. I believed what I wrote though, and am pretty sure I still believe it. I've been drinking a lot to keep myself unconscious when I want to be, to make time go by faster so I can get things taken care of, so I am free to hurt myself badly. I am planning self-destructive things, and maybe the fact that I am telling you all this means something. but what?
----------------------------Maybe that at least some part of you hasn't made up your mind to be self-destructive and wants some support? Don't hurt yourself Vesper.
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I can't think too clearly right now, sorry. I feel really guilty for being so ..well whatever I am .
-------------------------What you are is human and it's nothing to feel guilty about. Try posting again, people are concerned about you. :0)
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