Posted by Racer on June 24, 2004, at 14:33:47
In reply to A Pooh like ponder » Racer, posted by NikkiT2 on June 24, 2004, at 13:52:11
You know something? You're absolutely right -- I do armour myself pretty heavily, and even though I'm not aware of doing it, what you said makes sense to me. And right now I'm in a place where I need the sort of 'conversations' we've been having. Guess it's timing, eh?
The funniest thing is that I'm the 'class outcast' who couldn't talk to the 'cheerleaders' myself. It used to shock me when people said they felt intimidated by me, but I've learned enough by now to understand it better. Y'all just cain't see what a scairdycat's inside my shell!
And it's funny you brought it up today -- I was thinking about yesterday's therapy session this morning, and used "eggshell" as the analogy that worked for what I was feeling. Yesterday, I could *say* a lot of it, but I was still protecting me from actually feeling any of it. What I feel like is a blown eggshell. It may look solid, but the tiniest blow would destroy it. (Although you may have better nourished chickens over there, with more solid shells. Ours over here have particularly fragile shells.)
Guess you can think of me as wearing faux armour, huh?
Thanks for telling me that, by the way. Dunno why, but it kinda helped. (My second attempt at that same process in Access failed MISERABLY, by the way. Today is not looking like a Good Brain Day, nor a Good Productivity Day.) Maybe just on accounta I like the word "ponder"
I know I've told this story before, but years back I worked in a huge law firm. One of the attorneys used to enter "pondering" on his time sheets. The bills would go to the clients with things like, "30 minutes -- drafting brief
15 minutes -- drafting letters of intent
45 minutes -- pondering"He was a character, and that "pondering" alone gave me a great feeling of affection for him, although we never had much in person contact.
And I don't look like Miss Zen -- taller, and got huge [insert your choice of slang terms for the most prominent female sexual characteristics located on the upper torso here] and a nose with "character" -- although my "little cousin" (6'6" tall, about 260 pounds or so) says it has a full cast! She's quite pretty, I'm more what is sometimes called a 'handsome woman' -- you're a reader, you know what that means...
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