Posted by Racer on May 16, 2004, at 12:05:31
I have very, very mixed feelings about it, but without being able to check with the doctor about what was going on, without being able to get any kind of support for what I was going through, there was no way I could have gotten through another day. So, I stopped.
Today I'm totally wiped out, but I'm not agitated -- depressed as hell, still ready to give up on life in general, but not out of control.
And I'm going to have to cancel the doctor's appointment for Wednesday. Please, don't tell me not to. I just can't justify that kind of expense. It's not just the cost of the evaluation visit, it's all the associated costs. And I read through the insurance papers for my husband's new job, and my preexisting condition is excluded from coverage for one year. (The coverage sucks a lot, too, for mental health.) I'm going to cancel that appointment and wait until I see if I'm covered at all, then find out from the insurance company whether there's a way to waive the exclusion.
By the way, it is totally overwhelming that I have to do all this myself, with no one to turn to for help, when I'm not currently capable of taking care of anything. Yes, email and babble offer contact and support, but damn it to hell -- I need some actual help and there's no where to turn for it. Is it any wonder I'm having such a hard time?
poster:Racer
thread:347407
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