Posted by SLS on April 17, 2004, at 9:02:54
In reply to Whether or not to take a vacation in hospital?, posted by Racer on April 16, 2004, at 12:52:53
Hi Racer.
> On the other hand, I don't know if I can handle anything at all anymore. I know I can't take another day like yesterday, but I don't see any helpful alternatives.
What was it about yesterday that you can't take one more day of?
You seem overwhelmed. It does sound like you could use a vacation from your present situation. These illnesses rarely allow for respite, though, regardless of where one tries to run for escape. But the worst of times usually pass, don't they? They must, or you would have been gone long ago, right?
You need a break to recharge your batteries.
Are there specific stressors that you can identify as being most responsible for your current distress or does it feel like you are being drowned by everything all at once? Is there anything you can do to reduce the anxiety, even if only temporarily? Reducing anxiety is crucial. It will allow you to organize your thoughts and see things more clearly.
> Euthanesia is about the best option I can see,
I know the feeling. You do need to work to find some others, though. Do you feel that there is anyone in your life capable of understanding your condition and with whom you can work to establish a plan as to what to do next? I know that it helps me to at least have a plan. If there is no one in your life to help you do this, perhaps you can reach out to local social services. It sounds like you need support from professionals. It is out there. If the only place you can find it right now is in the hospital, then perhaps that is what is best for you at this juncture. You need to do something different than what you have done in the past, even if that is to simply research and choose a different hospital, facility, or program to invest yourself in.
> Which should I choose? The hell behind door number one, or the horrors of curtain two?
Neither. Start laying down the bricks one by one and begin to construct a path of your own. I know, I know. Pollyanna. Maybe everything I said is complete rubbish. I guess I hope for you what I hope for myself.
- Scott
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