Posted by Racer on March 7, 2004, at 13:53:26
In reply to Re: Racer » Racer, posted by noa on March 7, 2004, at 13:03:07
I'm laughing at it, because you're right! I don't do things by 1/2s, I do things by 3/4s...
As for the cold turkey off the meds, it's not as precipitous as it may sound. With the Xanax working as it should, I could sleep at night, and that was the only reason I could continue taking the other meds. Without the Xanax, not only did I have to face the withdrawal symptoms from the Xanax, I had so much physical pain from the other meds, that it just made sense to do it all at once. Besides that, I spent Friday night curled up on the floor of our living room, shaking uncontrollably and vomiting into a bucket. I couldn't keep anything down anyway, so not putting my GI tract through the effort of trying to deal with chemicals seemed like a wise move.
So far, some headaches from the withdrawals, and last night was the first night I'd been able to sleep more than two hours (four last night, so not great, but still better...). The muscle aches and joint pain are beginning to go away, and the stomach pain that the pdoc must be totally unrelated to my meds seems less intolerable, too. While it's frightening, because I know how rapidly I can fall back into the pit of dispair, I am thinking it was the right thing to do. The pdoc will not see me before my next regularly scheduled appointment, and by then I'll be detoxed enough to start a new set of drugs.
As for Mom, well, what can I say? She's trying. She's very, very trying? Naw, we do the Mother-Daughter Dance so well together, but we're starting to learn the steps to another melody now. I know that she really is trying, and I'm trying, and it's not as horrible as it may have sounded. My Mommy if fun, in some moods, and I may graciously allow her to buy me a new pair of jeans -- which I do need right now, mine are falling off me -- instead of what she offered: a very expensive kit for making a sweater. The kit is way too expensive, and I don't like it nearly as much as she does, so it's not real high on my list of priorities. I told her it was a sweet thought, and that I loved her and didn't need her to buy me anything so expensive, but that, if she really felt the need to spend some money on me, I did need a new pair of jeans. And maybe a new bra or two. And a bag of M&Ms! So, I have to take her shopping tomorrow, and we'll go get cat litter, cat food, her food and probably a few of those things, too. It'll be fine, and if I'm very, very good, we might even go to the yarn store I like over in Marin County, too. Yummy! Don't even really need to buy anything there, just love to look at all the pretty colors!
Thanks, noa, for making me laugh. And thanks for being here. You've got that talent for cutting through everything to the main points, and it's wonderful.
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