Posted by Racer on January 13, 2004, at 16:51:40
In reply to Re: What I say three times IS TRUE (Racer Rant) » Racer, posted by judy1 on January 13, 2004, at 13:57:17
Thanks, I'm glad you like the rants. They help me a lot, although I sometimes worry that I take up too much board space just ranting. I'm glad you enjoy them, helps ease the guilt.
What you say about it being easier to see other people than ourselves is so true. I can see what other people in my family do to themselves and each other, but as soon as it's directed at me, it becomes True, rather than just craziness. I saw a stand up comic years ago who hit the nail on the head: "The reason your parents are so good at pushing all your buttons is because they installed them!" Somehow, that makes it all sound so easy, doesn't it?
There's good and bad in most of the world, and certainly in my mother. The sickness thing is a special case, and I won't bore you by telling all about it here, but otherwise she did form my mind in a lot of very good ways, too. It means that now we can have the sort of highly enjoyable, gratifying conversations that I long for, and rarely find a partner in. We can throw ideas back and forth, clarifying them, building on them, and on subjects that we both enjoy. History, literature, art, criticism, and the modern world. Most recently, we analysed the current problems around us and decided the root cause is a lack of critical thinking. I enjoy that sort of conversation, not adversarial debate, but reasoned analysis refined by two good minds. (I told her it was a good thing for me I grew up around so many critical people, but she didn't laugh.)
Anyway, while I've certainly lost ground since before the Christmas Meltdown, at least I'm getting back to where I can start to worry out the tangled threads of my life again. Thank you for your response.
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