Posted by Phil on December 18, 2002, at 12:38:31
I love these boards-two days ago was 4 years that I've been here. I am getting down myself because of so many suicide posts. Not because of the posts themselves, moreso because there's not a damn thing I can do except type.
Recently, being told bt email that I was nice to try and help, now go away.
I'm not responding anymore to these cries for help. Most don't want to hear it or are uncapable of hearing it.
I understand the issue, having been there a few times but if I were going to kill myself, nobody here would ever know. You wouldn't get advance warning.
You know that people don't really want to die when they post that they want to die. If I want to die, it's very easy. I do carbon monoxide or blow my brains out...done deal. No use thinking of the best way, I think it would be most unpleasant by any method.
Why does this treatable illness take so many, so young, so clueless. I pray for those that are hurting and I pray that I can stop hurting myself.Had to get that out of my system. It isn't aimed at anyone but at everyone hurting so bad that all they want is to be dead for Christmas.
How many suicides could be saved by just getting people to care just enough to say Help me. And then let us try to help.
I'm down today myself so this may come across wrong.
poster:Phil
thread:813
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/2000/20020724/msgs/813.html