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Posted by kiddo on November 21, 2001, at 20:49:45
I guess I just need to 'vent'. Right now I'm riding the roller coaster, and feel like it's going highspeed in reverse. One day I love life and everything seems so 'right'. Lately, I've been spiraling down like an avalanche and feel like it's snowballing. What do I do? I've been taking my meds, and all that other stuff that's supposed to improve your life and wellbeing, so what-what good is it if it doesn't work?
My mood swings are so irratic right now, I can't take it. I thought about putting myself in the hospital, but Monday was my b.d., I was supposed to have a dr.s appt, today (but he was sick and cancelled the whole day), and tomorrow is Thanksgiving-so I didn't. However, I don't know what will happen next week. I CANT TAKE ANYMORE.
Today, my hubby gets ticked, and goes off on me because my 'mood swings' are out of control. What a joke, does he actually think I do it on purpose? I was in PBO and no one was there-like who would want to be the night before Thanksgiving? I feel like someone with the plague-and outcast in my own family.
Posted by Greg A. on November 21, 2001, at 21:32:24
In reply to I don't get it, posted by kiddo on November 21, 2001, at 20:49:45
I don't know the answer kiddo. Learn from every experience?? Make the little changes to meds, to life - from what you learn?
It's a slow and tedious process. Some people are blissfully ignorant. We're not.Greg
Posted by kiddo on November 21, 2001, at 21:45:56
In reply to Re: I don't get it, posted by Greg A. on November 21, 2001, at 21:32:24
Thanks for replying-
I've been in therapy for six years-have tried so many meds/med combos I could start my own pharmacy from the remainders of them all. How much slower can it be-at this point, I'd rather be blissfully ignorant-sorry
Kiddo
> I don't know the answer kiddo. Learn from every experience?? Make the little changes to meds, to life - from what you learn?
> It's a slow and tedious process. Some people are blissfully ignorant. We're not.
>
> Greg
Posted by Greg A. on November 22, 2001, at 0:17:05
In reply to Re: I don't get it » Greg A., posted by kiddo on November 21, 2001, at 21:45:56
Posted by tina on November 22, 2001, at 7:28:00
In reply to I don't get it, posted by kiddo on November 21, 2001, at 20:49:45
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> Today, my hubby gets ticked, and goes off on me because my 'mood swings' are out of control. What a joke, does he actually think I do it on purpose? I was in PBO and no one was there-like who would want to be the night before Thanksgiving? I feel like someone with the plague-and outcast in my own family.I can sympathise with this part of your post kiddo. My family makes light of it ie: "oh, she's having one of her moods" like I can control it or stop it. They don't get how incapacitating and overwhelming it feels. They avoid me when I'm down and smother me when I'm up. They can't just be my family, try to understand and love me for me. It's all a game. the problem is, I'm always the loser.
Wish I could help kiddo
hugs
Tina
Posted by Greg A. on November 22, 2001, at 13:03:49
In reply to Re: I don't get it » kiddo, posted by tina on November 22, 2001, at 7:28:00
Tina – I’m surprised your family is not more compassionate and understanding. You mention hubby, but who are the rest of the family? I have involved my wife in my research re: depression. I have had her visit my therapist with me. My kids spent quite a bit of time with me when I was in hospital and if nothing else got the idea that a mental illness was to be treated just like a physical one. They still don’t seem to attach much of a stigma to it. They saw lots of other people in the same boat. I figure if I am open and honest and if I try when I feel up to it to tell them what my problem is about and how it affects me, we will function better as a family.
Things are not perfect. They never are. My wife becomes frustrated with ‘my moods’ but if she knows I am trying to help myself, she is pretty supportive.Hang in there,
Greg
Posted by tina on November 22, 2001, at 16:41:05
In reply to Re: I don't get it, Tina, posted by Greg A. on November 22, 2001, at 13:03:49
Hi Greg (with an A)
You wouldn't be suprised if you knew my family.:)
My husband does his best to understand. Some days are better than others. I can tell that he gets confused about me sometimes.
Mostly it's my mother, father, brother, aunt, grandmother. My father takes prozac but doesn't believe that I could possibly have any problems because I had a "good" childhood---according to HIM. HE was abused as a child and lived through a war, travelling to canada from england when he was 14 as a slave on a steam ship, working on a farm for nothing but food and shelter and being treated worse than the animals.....so of course, my not having dealt with anything like that, couldn't possibly have any problems, right? Mom is so dysfunctional she beats me by a mile but is in complete denial about it. Also abused as a child in many different ways, she doesn't believe that her past has any bearing on what happens in the present so why should I have problems if she doesn't? The rest are of the mind over matter school of thought. The "don't let it get to you" or the "you can change it if you really want to" sort of mindset. I just don't bother trying to explain anymore. I've been this way for 14 years now and if they don't get it by now, they never will. I was also abused as a child and my family was ripped apart by divorce and was ruthlessly teased and ridiculed by my brother about my appearance. I've been through a few of my own traumas and they have left lasting impressions of course. I'm tired of trying to explain that I have feelings too, ya know? Just because my problems aren't the same as theirs, doesn't mean that my problems are any less important.thanks for the understanding Greg
peace to you
TinaYou mention hubby, but who are the rest of the family? I have involved my wife in my research re: depression. I have had her visit my therapist with me. My kids spent quite a bit of time with me when I was in hospital and if nothing else got the idea that a mental illness was to be treated just like a physical one. They still don’t seem to attach much of a stigma to it. They saw lots of other people in the same boat. I figure if I am open and honest and if I try when I feel up to it to tell them what my problem is about and how it affects me, we will function better as a family.
> Things are not perfect. They never are. My wife becomes frustrated with ‘my moods’ but if she knows I am trying to help myself, she is pretty supportive.
>
> Hang in there,
>
> Greg
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