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Re: t2 is toast » Dinah

Posted by orchid on October 6, 2005, at 18:58:20

In reply to Re: t2 is toast » JenStar, posted by Dinah on October 6, 2005, at 18:51:22

From what you have said, this T doesn't seem to be good for you.

Plus, I think if a T is too stylish, it might lessen your sense of self esteem. A moderate looking T is better for us!!. And definitely not one who makes you feel ashamed.

 

Re: t2 is toast » Dinah

Posted by fallsfall on October 6, 2005, at 22:15:04

In reply to t2 is toast, posted by Dinah on October 6, 2005, at 17:34:33

You did a great job going to see her. It is OK if you don't want to stay with her. Those sessions were your "interview" sessions. You can interveiw as many therapists as you want to until you find one that feels OK to you.

That does sound a bit offputting... I really appreciate my therapist's waiting room - almost all the time I'm the only one there.

Would you like me to post the URL for my "how to find a therapist" post?

Have a good time exploring a new city. Keep in touch.

 

Re: t2 is toast

Posted by gardenergirl on October 6, 2005, at 23:46:38

In reply to Re: t2 is toast » Dinah, posted by fallsfall on October 6, 2005, at 22:15:04

Oh Dinah,
You were so brave just to go at all, knowing about the kind of place her office was in.

I'm so sorry it didn't work out. I hope you try again when you are ready, and that you still find support from T1.

(((dinah)))

gg

 

Re: t2 is toast » Dinah

Posted by JenStar on October 7, 2005, at 0:49:05

In reply to Re: t2 is toast » JenStar, posted by Dinah on October 6, 2005, at 18:51:22

Well, she sounds kind of like a b**ch to me! I agree with the poster who said these are like interview sessions. After your current far-away T it's going to be hard for a new T to stack up, but some will stack better than others. :) This one doesn't sound too stackable to me!

I'm sorry she shamed you. Do you think she was intentionally doing it somehow, or is it just something about her personality that is not warm and welcoming?

Sometimes even the most beautiful people are not threatening, as long as their demeanor is nice. But if she *makes* you feel weird, then I think it's something she's doing, too.

Anyway, I'm sure there will be a better fit for you out there. I'm sorry it sucks to have to search though. Take heart and take care!

jenStar

 

Re: t2 is toast - Orchid and » JenStar

Posted by Dinah on October 7, 2005, at 4:49:39

In reply to Re: t2 is toast » Dinah, posted by JenStar on October 7, 2005, at 0:49:05

I want to be fair. She seems perfectly nice. And I'm sure she didn't mean to shame me.

It's just that some topics are sensitive to me, my appearance and demeanor being two. And to have her comment on them, and in the same tone she used to comment on my coping skills, was distressing to me and made me feel ashamed.

It wasn't really her fault.

There were a couple of other things too. She asked *big* questions. Not as in the important sort that stick in your mind and make you think. I've forgotten the specifics already. But the really open ended sort that are said in a tone that clearly expects a "right" answer, but that are so broad that I have no idea what the right answer is. Like "How would you picture mental health?" I knew she was getting at some of my dysfunctional coping skills, and that's fine, but that question was just too big. It left me totally blank. And attempts on my part to narrow the question down a bit into parts I could digest just led to restatements of the original question.

It was nothing wrong on her part. My coping skills *are* dysfunctional and I guess it's reasonable to wonder why after so many years of therapy I cling to them. And closing my eyes and my very soft tone of voice in therapy are my way of concentrating and talking about tough topics, but I guess they *do* look odd. It's not like she pointed any of those things out unkindly, but she did point them out. And maybe I didn't feel like she knew me well enough to point them out. Or that she could have been more positively neutral or interested or curious, rather than sounding as if she were pointing out something I should change.

My therapist says I'm too sensitive, and I probably am. But I'm not impossible. I thought my son's play therapist was great, so it's not like I'd hate any therapist presented to me.

Just most of them. :(

 

Re: t2 is toast » fallsfall

Posted by Dinah on October 7, 2005, at 4:55:49

In reply to Re: t2 is toast » Dinah, posted by fallsfall on October 6, 2005, at 22:15:04

I know. I'm not overly concerned about it except for the fact that there aren't many therapists around right now. Like I said, of the five therapists I called (and I only called those whose offices aren't in places that are likely destroyed), and whose voicemail picked up, she was the *only* one who returned my call.

I have your post bookmarked. :) Yet I still didn't follow any of your excellent advice. Even now I have no idea of her theoretical orientation. (Hmmmm... It now occurs to me that when I asked I didn't use the word "theoretical". I wonder if she thought I meant gender orientation. I forget that they don't expect us to care or know about these things.)

My husband's going to let me take the computer, so I should be able to keep in touch.

I'm not sure about enjoying it though. Work requests are starting to trickle in, so I might have to come back early. I'm not going to feel too guilty about taking a long weekend though.

 

Re: t2 is toast » gardenergirl

Posted by Dinah on October 7, 2005, at 4:57:40

In reply to Re: t2 is toast, posted by gardenergirl on October 6, 2005, at 23:46:38

I did email him. But I try to put in each email that I don't expect a reply, and that although I feel comfort in touching base with him, I'd feel uncomfortable if he felt like he needed to respond.

He did write me a very brief note the other day saying that I shouldn't worry about having done anything wrong.

 

Re: t2 is toast » Dinah

Posted by Tamar on October 7, 2005, at 7:56:05

In reply to Re: t2 is toast » Tamar, posted by Dinah on October 6, 2005, at 18:46:59


> My regret in telling her sensitive stuff is that there are some things you tell therapists that get a very negative reaction, and I suppose it's better not to tell those things until they know you well and realize you aren't going to be a management problem to them, or a faker, or something like that. I told too early this time. Big mistake. She didn't say she wouldn't work with me or anything, but the tone in the room changed.

Ah, I see what you mean… I suppose that makes most sense if you’re certain that waiting till they’ve got to know you will ensure they take it better. (Sorry for the poorly-structured sentences. I’m struggling a bit today.) What I means is: if you share this stuff early on in the relationship (like first month or so) you might be able to weed out the people who can’t deal appropriately with it. Unless it’s the sort of thing that all therapists can handle appropriately as long as they know you well enough…

> It's a shame that there are psychological issues that are taboo to talk about with therapists. :(

Absolutely. And I’m sorry she shamed you too :(
*Bad* therapist…

I hope you find someone soon.

Tamar


 

Re: t2 is toast » Dinah

Posted by terrics on October 7, 2005, at 12:33:50

In reply to t2 is toast, posted by Dinah on October 6, 2005, at 17:34:33

Hi Dinah, This must be horrible for you. Leaving your T. of so many years and then getting a BIG LOSER. How would anyone want to go to therapy in that situation Even if you are vey empathetic toward the cancer patients, therapy time is just for you. Yes, cancer pts. are sick and need empathy, but someone having therapy for mental healh should not be combined with oncology patient's in the same location. In my opinion it is completely unfair. I hope that your'e next decision works out well. I hope that you can keep us posted. terrics

 

Re: t2 is toast » Dinah

Posted by Annierose on October 7, 2005, at 16:37:55

In reply to t2 is toast, posted by Dinah on October 6, 2005, at 17:34:33

Just keep on keeping on. You'll find someone that you feel more comfortable with. Tardiness would bother me (especially on appointment number 2). And shame, well, who needs to feel that? I have enough already.

Hope your time in Huntsville is a good distraction.

 

Re: t2 is toast

Posted by Dinah on October 7, 2005, at 19:07:45

In reply to Re: t2 is toast » Dinah, posted by Annierose on October 7, 2005, at 16:37:55

Chuckle. Huntsville is not anything like I remembered. But then again I looked it up and I was last here in 1977. rofl.

I don't think I'll try another therapist. I think I'll just substitute Risperdal for therapy. I always knew they were about equivilant, but Risperdal is worse for my diabetes and has some other risks that therapy doesn't have. But I suppose you could say therapy has some risks that Risperdal doesn't.

From my bill at the pharmacy before they fixed the insurance, the cost is about equivilant.

 

Re: t2 is toast » Dinah

Posted by alexandra_k on October 7, 2005, at 21:24:49

In reply to Re: t2 is toast - Orchid and » JenStar, posted by Dinah on October 7, 2005, at 4:49:39

????
After how many sessions????
I mean... I guess I do understand that sometimes thats all it takes to figure out that things are not going to work out but... I can't help wondering a little...

> It's just that some topics are sensitive to me, my appearance and demeanor being two.

Yeah. I think everybody probably has sensitive topics. I know that I surely do. But I guess the only way they are going to learn which your sensitive topics are is to hit the nerve a little and see by how you respond. Otherwise... I guess they don't really have any idea. Things like that take a little time to figure out.

>And to have her comment on them, and in the same tone she used to comment on my coping skills, was distressing to me and made me feel ashamed.

Hmm.
:-(
Yuk. I hate that feeling...
Could you have told her you felt that way?
Like... 'those things are pretty sensitive topics for me and I feel a bit distressed and ashamed about them and so I need you to be a bit careful?'
Would that be a possibility?
Because then... She would know. And if she doesn't back off then then I guess that would be it for me. But I guess it is hard... Hard when she doesn't know...

> There were a couple of other things too. She asked *big* questions. Not as in the important sort that stick in your mind and make you think. I've forgotten the specifics already. But the really open ended sort that are said in a tone that clearly expects a "right" answer, but that are so broad that I have no idea what the right answer is.

Oh yes! I hate those questions... The ones that are open ended (because they are supposed to ask open ended questions) but where they seem to expect a particular sort of reply... But then... Some other people have said this too, and it turned out that when they said something like 'I don't know how to respond to that because I'm feeling like you have some particular answer in mind and I don't know what it is' then that can help... Because sometimes they don't expect a particular answer (and it can be good to know that) or othertimes they do (which they need to change) or othertimes the question simply doesn't have the effect (to get you talking) that they thought it would and so telling them how you respond to those kinds of questions can help them see that they need a new strategy...

> Like "How would you picture mental health?" I knew she was getting at some of my dysfunctional coping skills, and that's fine, but that question was just too big. It left me totally blank. And attempts on my part to narrow the question down a bit into parts I could digest just led to restatements of the original question.

Yeah. I hate those conversations too...
I think the only way around them...
Is to talk about how those types of questions make you feel...
If she is just trying to get you to talk to her...
Then you might have some better ideas as to how she can best engage you...
THose kinds of things take time
Time for you to get to know each other.

> And closing my eyes and my very soft tone of voice in therapy are my way of concentrating and talking about tough topics, but I guess they *do* look odd.

I do those too... Maybe she doesn't know that its your way of concentrating and being able to answer to the best of your ability.

> It's not like she pointed any of those things out unkindly, but she did point them out. And maybe I didn't feel like she knew me well enough to point them out. Or that she could have been more positively neutral or interested or curious, rather than sounding as if she were pointing out something I should change.

Could you tell her that?????
Because... That sounds fair enough to me...
And maybe... She doesn't realise that her doing that had the effect it did on you...

> My therapist says I'm too sensitive, and I probably am.

I don't think there is any such thing as being TOO sensitive.
Being sensitive is just noticing...
Its what we do with the things we become aware of that can be hard...


About the waiting room...

Is there any way around that?
Really.
I mean...
I can understand how that kind of waiting room could be very hard indeed for someone who is worried about other people throwing up.
Do you have a cellphone?
Maybe you could wait in the parking lot or something like that and she could call you
Or come and get you from there when she is ready to see you???


 

Re: t2 is toast » Dinah

Posted by Annierose on October 8, 2005, at 6:21:29

In reply to Re: t2 is toast, posted by Dinah on October 7, 2005, at 19:07:45

Dinah -

Remember doors are open, so if you change your mind, you'll be able to seek additional on-going support. I don't think having someone to talk to would be a bad idea.

Does talking with another T feel like betrayal? (Back to the love affair concept)

It's amazing how our minds can romanticize (sp?) a city. Plus, in 30 years, towns grow and change and add lots of Starbucks on every corner.

 

Re: t2 is toast » Dinah

Posted by fallsfall on October 8, 2005, at 8:08:50

In reply to Re: t2 is toast, posted by Dinah on October 7, 2005, at 19:07:45

You could move to my state.... I'd be happy to have you close by.

I think that you know that Risperdal is not the same as therapy.

My understanding is that your experience with t2 was "not stellar". She was OK, but there were things that you would want to work out with her. But her waiting room was a problem.

An experience like that doesn't seem to mandate giving up on therapy forever...

My personal opinion (even though you didn't ask...) is that you would benefit from a period of interviewing therapists. I think that you should talk to 4 therapists (you've done the first already) before you make any kind of decision. I think that it would be helpful for you to have the experience of doing the interviewing.

I know that therapists in your area aren't being particularly responsive. But if you can see that as a truth of the area, rather than an indictment of you, I think you can get through that. So you made 5 phone calls and got 1 response - that is 20%. To find 3 additional promising therapists, you will probably have to talk to 10 more on the phone. That's a lot of phone calls - but you just leave the same message on each one's answering machine. Maybe you can record YOUR message on a tape and just play your tape to their answering machines!

In the 10 phone interviews, you find out if they have appointments available, if they are OK with supportive longterm therapy, what their theoretical orientation is, tell them that you don't like to be pushed, that you saw your previous therapist for 10 years, and that you are considering moving out of the area.

I'm hoping that you can (face to face) interview therapists who cover a range - i.e. I'd really like you to see a psychodynamic therapist, someone eclectic, I guess someone who does CBT (though I think that is less likely to be an ideal orientation for you), maybe someone humanistic.

You need to go through this process, Dinah.

You tend to see a small bump in the road ahead and decide that it isn't worth proceeding down that road. You wouldn't let the rest of us get away with that. It is like a door appears in front of you and you crumble into a pile on the floor. But you don't check to see if the door is unlocked - or even if the door is OPEN. You assume that since there is a door there that you are finished. You wouldn't let your son get away with that - if he was reading and didn't know a word, would you let him say "Well, I'm not going to try to read anymore. I'm sure I can find someone to read things to me as I grow up when I need to have something read."?

I know that you see yourself as powerless and helpless. That is part of the identity that you have (just like being depressed was part of the identity that I had). But you HAVE shown, particularly in the last month, that you are NOT powerless and helpless. Can you consider the possibility that you don't HAVE to be powerless and helpless? That there might be a different Dinah in there who could have even just a little power and strength? I know that is a terrifying thought. You don't have to agree that it is true - just consider the possibility that it might, in some small way, be POSSIBLE.

I love you, Dinah.
Falls.

 

Re: t2 is toast » Dinah

Posted by Poet on October 8, 2005, at 17:32:11

In reply to t2 is toast, posted by Dinah on October 6, 2005, at 17:34:33

Hi Dinah,

People in the waiting room are receiving cancer treatments? No way in hell would I have stayed 30 seconds in there.

T shares a waiting room with other Ts and I can't stand it when somebody else is sitting there.

I can't say I blame you for making T2 toast. I can't blame you for not wanting to see another T either. I just hope that the meds work until if and when you are ready to try hunting for a T in Huntsville. I've never been there- it's Alabama right? I should have paid more attention in geography class...

Poet

 

Re: t2 is toast

Posted by alexandra_k on October 8, 2005, at 17:45:18

In reply to Re: t2 is toast » Dinah, posted by Poet on October 8, 2005, at 17:32:11

uh...

not that cancer is catchy, of course.

and then there is probably the point that they feel a lot worse having someone else watch them

than it feels to be watching them

or at least...

just as bad

 

Re: t2 is toast » Poet

Posted by Dinah on October 9, 2005, at 9:51:36

In reply to Re: t2 is toast » Dinah, posted by Poet on October 8, 2005, at 17:32:11

I'm not sure if we'll be moving or not. It probably depends on what my therapist does. And whether we could find suitable schooling elsewhere.

My husband could go either way, so my input is going to matter a lot.

 

Re: t2 is toast » Annierose

Posted by Dinah on October 9, 2005, at 9:53:05

In reply to Re: t2 is toast » Dinah, posted by Annierose on October 8, 2005, at 6:21:29

:)

Yeah. But I guess if it had stayed the same, it wouldn't be as ideal in terms of job opportunities. So it's a double edged sword.

It's a nice city, and I wouldn't mind living there.

But I'm not in love anymore.

(I did find the area I fell in love with though.)

 

Re: t2 is toast

Posted by Dinah on October 9, 2005, at 10:01:04

In reply to Re: t2 is toast » Dinah, posted by fallsfall on October 8, 2005, at 8:08:50

I would say that this experience with therapy was valuable in that it exposed a lot of errors I made with a new therapist. I don't think I should think of just being able to jump into therapy. If I ever do it again, I'm going to be a lot more cautious.

I sort of see this as the opposite of victimhood. I could go from therapist to therapist thinking that's the only way I'll be ok. Or I can realize that I can be ok on my own, with enough Risperdal, and that any therapist is not actually better than no therapist at all.

If my therapist continues his junkets or terminates me I'll probably convince my husband to move, and if necessary start over again.

But this isn't really the right time to do this. The pickings are slim. I'm in distress, and early sessions with a therapist don't decrease that. Plus.... Maybe it's like a love affair in another way. Maybe you just can't go from one directly to another. Maybe you need a cooling off period. I know I nearly burst into tears during the session missing my therapist and thinking that whatever was going on at the time would never ever have happened with my therapist.

I think it's sort of taking control of my life. Saying "Ok, my therapist won't be around for at least a month, maybe forever. But I'm going to figure out ways not to be dependent on this therapist or any other."

 

Re: t2 is toast » Dinah

Posted by mair on October 9, 2005, at 10:07:25

In reply to Re: t2 is toast, posted by Dinah on October 9, 2005, at 10:01:04

Dinah - I just sent you an email to your babble address. When I wrote it I had not seen this thread, so some of it will seem irrelevant, and should be disregarded.

((((Dinah))))

mair

 

I was just thinking about you! Where've you been? (nm) » mair

Posted by daisym on October 9, 2005, at 16:26:50

In reply to Re: t2 is toast » Dinah, posted by mair on October 9, 2005, at 10:07:25

 

Re: t2 is toast » Dinah

Posted by gardenergirl on October 9, 2005, at 21:12:35

In reply to Re: t2 is toast, posted by Dinah on October 9, 2005, at 10:01:04

>>
> I think it's sort of taking control of my life. Saying "Ok, my therapist won't be around for at least a month, maybe forever. But I'm going to figure out ways not to be dependent on this therapist or any other."

That sounds pretty good, if you ask me. I think that you are showing amazing resilience during this truly awful time.

(((dinah)))

gg

 

Re: I was just thinking about you! Where've you been? » daisym

Posted by mair on October 10, 2005, at 12:09:10

In reply to I was just thinking about you! Where've you been? (nm) » mair, posted by daisym on October 9, 2005, at 16:26:50

Gee Thanks Daisy.

Can't keep up at work; Can't keep up at home (I just realized my family currently has no auto insurance because I blanked out on paying the bill); can't seem to manage my depression. With all that going on, it's just been too difficult to even try to use my very limited home computer time to participate here.

But I have thought about you as well, and have missed the sense of community here.

mair

 

Re: I was just thinking about you! Where've you been? » mair

Posted by Tamar on October 10, 2005, at 12:40:19

In reply to Re: I was just thinking about you! Where've you been? » daisym, posted by mair on October 10, 2005, at 12:09:10


> I just realized my family currently has no auto insurance because I blanked out on paying the bill

I thought I was the only one who did that!

Sorry it's hard right now.

Tamar

 

Re: I was just thinking about you! Where've you be » mair

Posted by Dinah on October 10, 2005, at 13:43:52

In reply to Re: I was just thinking about you! Where've you been? » daisym, posted by mair on October 10, 2005, at 12:09:10

I'm sorry you aren't doing well, Mair. If you ever feel up to talking about it, you know how to reach me.

Dinah


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