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Posted by happyflower on April 9, 2005, at 22:28:48
My T has been very patient with me since I told him he needs to stop pushing me so much. I think I am ready to try another EMDR treatment with him. It scares me so much because of all the hidden memories I have of my mother's abuse. My PTSD symtoms are almost gone from my last contact my mother tried. I have only been in T since Jan. but I feel so much better. Better than I have for years. But I know it is an illusion of happiness if I don't desentatize the past. All it will take is my mother to show up at my door or write me then I am right back to where I started. I am feeling so much stronger and think I might be ready to open up some of those painful wounds that I have. I don't have any therpy this week, but he had me come in on Mon. of the following week. I think I can, I think I can. ( but I still have a week to chicken out) lol My T says my mother is one of the worst abuse cases he has seen. He is so surprised that I am going so well in spite of my past. When my EMDR sessions revealed much worse, then I even thought, he knows he must go slow with me if he doesn't want to scare me out of treatment. I thought I would thank him next session for being so patient with me and I am ready to more forward. It is so hard, you know. But I have to do it in order to heal and have a life of happiness. I deserve it right? If I continue my mother to effect me, it is like I am allowing her to still abuse me. I guess the best payback is to live a happy life. I haven't seen or talked to her for over 4 years and it is the best choice I have ever made. Sorry for the all the ramblings. ( I guess I am feeling a little safer here to open to you all). Thanks!
Posted by Poet on April 10, 2005, at 16:11:27
In reply to Think I am ready to trust T more * could trigger**, posted by happyflower on April 9, 2005, at 22:28:48
Hi Happyflower,
I should change my name from Poet to Chicken, I chicken out in therapy all the time. It's so much easier to deny, deny, deny than try to work through the truth. And I've been seeing my very patient T for two and a half years.
I'm glad that your T has made your feel trusting and comfortable in sharing those old wounds. You absolutely deserve to heal and have a life of happiness. As for your mother, I am forced to be civil on babble, so I'll think it, not say it.
Take care.
Poet
Posted by happyflower on April 10, 2005, at 18:45:47
In reply to Re: Think I am ready to trust T more * could trigger** » happyflower, posted by Poet on April 10, 2005, at 16:11:27
> Hi Happyflower,
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> You absolutely deserve to heal and have a life of happiness. As for your mother, I am forced to be civil on babble, so I'll think it, not say it.
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> Take care.
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> Poet
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Thank you Poet for your support. It mean a lot! Have a good night!
Posted by pinkeye on April 11, 2005, at 13:56:05
In reply to Think I am ready to trust T more * could trigger**, posted by happyflower on April 9, 2005, at 22:28:48
It must have been really really hard on you - all this abuse by your own mother. Take Care.. I admire your courage so much. I would have crumbled totally if I had been in your position.
You are extremely brave, and you deserve all the wonderful things.
Posted by happyflower on April 11, 2005, at 14:33:43
In reply to Re: Think I am ready to trust T more * could trigger** » happyflower, posted by pinkeye on April 11, 2005, at 13:56:05
Thank you pinkeye! ((((((((((hugs))))))))))))
;)
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