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Posted by Audris on May 30, 2007, at 10:33:35
I have suffered from depression since the age of 13. I was molested by my father who suffered from manic depression and bi-polar disorder. I have always seemed to keep my depression under control. Now all I want to do is avoid the world. My mother passed in August 2000 suddenly from cancer. My younger brother passed away July 2002 from an over dose of Oxyicoton. My older brother passed November 2005 from a cancerous brain tumor. My husband gambled, drugged, and cheated on me my entire marriage. I recently found out about the cheating. He felt the need to tell my daughter. Not sure what the motive is but all I can think about now is… we never used a condom in our marriage. I get sick thinking about it. He is now my ex-husband and has been ordered to pay the debts of the marriage however since my name remains on the debt if he does not pay I have to. My ex is not one to take responsibility never has. I will again take care of this. I am not sure how, but I don’t sleep and are overeating which is not helping the problem. I start a new program of Topamax,, zocar, and a sleeping aid. I forgot the name since I dropped it off at the Pharmacy. I have never joined a chat room or anything like this but feel the need to talk to people about this.
I want to feel better. Even if I pay this debt the rest of my life knowing I am away from the person who created it is not in my life. I feel for my daughter, he borrowed money from her and she is not able to get it back. She works and goes to school full time. He has not moral code. I don't want to bash him because it makes me feel worse. I am hoping for this medication to help. :)
Posted by Phillipa on May 30, 2007, at 11:27:32
In reply to depression and sef medicating, posted by Audris on May 30, 2007, at 10:33:35
How horrible for you you've been through so much are you seeing a therapist too? I would suggest that too. Love Phillipa
Posted by Squiggles on May 30, 2007, at 12:23:00
In reply to depression and sef medicating, posted by Audris on May 30, 2007, at 10:33:57
That's too much stress and heartache Audris;
if you have depression and anxiety from it,
benzos and an AD or lithium should help,
and a room of one's own :-).
And of course a doctor or psychiatrist;
Good grief, you should be congratulated for
having the strength to write here.Good luck.
Squiggles
Posted by KayeBaby on May 30, 2007, at 13:59:41
In reply to Re: depression and sef medicating » Audris, posted by Phillipa on May 30, 2007, at 11:27:32
You are definately a resiliant person. You have been through a lot and you seem like you have a good sense of self-respect.
It sounds like you are beginning a new chapter without toxic people.
Phillipa is right. I bet now is a great time to let it all out in therapy.
Let us know how your new meds are treating you and how you are holding up.
Peace,
Kaye
Posted by Jedi on June 7, 2007, at 1:59:40
In reply to depression and sef medicating, posted by Audris on May 30, 2007, at 10:33:35
Hi Audris,
I really feel for you, you've been through so much. I saw no self-medicating mentioned in your post. I used booze and pot in my early years to get through the hard times. Luckily I don't have an addicitive personality and suffered no long term harm. I could have; the way I drank and took chances until about age 25. Fact is, I was lucky to survive those years.You are right about the negetive talk and feelings. It does not hurt the other person at all, it just hurts you. It may take professional help to give them up. I had a person who cost me millions years ago and I still haven't completely let it go. It's a hard thing to do on your own. Especially when you are still paying the bill.
Take care,
Jedi
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