Posted by antigua3 on October 31, 2007, at 6:55:11
In reply to Where do i start on so many drugs........, posted by dexedriine on October 30, 2007, at 19:40:32
yes, I've felt entirely hopeless and so disgusted with myself and my life when I wanted to stop drinking. I knew I had to, but I didn't want to give it up because it numbed me to no end. But life with my children was more important, and I didn't want them to grow up with an alcoholic parent like I did. I just couldn't do that to them, and one day after doing something extremely stupid and embarrassing and finding out that my son had shared this info with others, that was it. I was so humiliated that I called a number my doctor had given me of a place that could help.
It wasn't easy, and at times it still isn't easy. But I don't loathe myself anymore at all. I am responsible for everything I do, and I accept that, but knowing that alcohol is no longer part of the picture has changed my life in imeasurable ways.
good luck,
antigu
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