Posted by nolegirl23 on October 11, 2007, at 21:29:31
In reply to FELL OFF THE 'WAGON'...., posted by sometimesblue on September 29, 2007, at 17:05:41
> So a few weeks ago i did something really stupid while obliviously drunk, didn't remember the next day an dmy husband [of all people] put the pieces together. I felt ashamed, embarassed, and pretty much like a whore [so that give you an idea of what i did]...i then said good-bye to alcohol, something that has been with me for many year, through the good and the bad...i had to because i felt i no longer had any control of it.
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> But i have replacd it with cocaine, and pills. Since I was 16, i haven't had a sober day...he;lpI know how you feel, I just fell off the wagon myself. I have been an alcoholic for 11 years (I'm 26) and I finally decided to go to AA and really try to get sober. I was doing SOOOOO well, and I gave in to temptation the other night.
I KNEW I was going to relapse, I knew I wanted a drink, and I didn't do anything that I was supposed to do. I didn't call my sponsor, didn't pray, didn't read the Big Book, I basically said 'f*ck it' and started drinking. I called my sponsor the next day and went right back to the meetings. But I still can't stop beating myself up.
I hate being addicted.
poster:nolegirl23
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